the bright side of ugly

hmm

2007-06-08T23:27:00.001-04:00

after reading my last post, I have determined that I actually am more fucked up than I thought.

true that.

procrastination

2007-02-07T22:10:00.000-05:00

this is me procrastinating.

I've got three tests tomorrow and I feel like studying for not one of them!

excuse the complaining. if there's one thing (among many many more) that bothers me (at this particular moment in time) it is people who complain excessivle about homework and/or list every assignment they did or have to do. are you really quite that boring that you need to detail your homework life for me?

the truth is... yes.

or am I so boring that you have nothing else to say to me save the homework shit? lets hope not.

today in civics the teacher told the class to write four words on the board, two that describe the way you think of yourself, and two that cover how others perceive you. or how you THINK others perceive you. a great deal of difference.

I didn't write any words on the board. I might have managed fuck you in both places but he said no explicatives.

like I would actually do that.

I am just too bland in school.

The truth is,

I am much more complex than two words. can I even describe myself in many words? I am so many different me's.

do you know what really drove me crazy though? some my fellow (and rather stinky if I do say so myself) peers wrote things on the board that they wanted others to think about them. like didn't put too much thought into it. there were a lot of "loud"s, "nice"s, and a few "complicated" comments for those who wanted to be sure that those watching them write on the board didn't get the wrong idea about their not so simple life. not sure that I can convey what I mean entirely, let me delve further. the type of person who wants you to know that their life is complicated so you know that you don't have it as bad as them. twisted logic. why anyone would desire pity is beyond me. but of course, I am an anti-pity advocate. I cannot stand pity or sympathy most of the time. a major character flaw. not really.

a major character flaw would be my inability to open up in front of strangers.

and yet I am able to type out all of this on a blog that is up for everyone to see and yet no one will see it?

it's true. no one is going to actually read this post.

I dare whoever reads this post to write a comment stating that they read it.

double dog dare!

I read about that in the sarah dessen trash that I was reading today.

seriously... does it get any worse than that? double dog dare? sarah dessen at least appeared to have the same opinion. but seriously, sometimes I wonder about those books.

I think that I'm almost done.

I think that it's a bit strange that everytime I go to finish a post I say that.

tough shit.

for me.

time to study.

I can avoid the inevitable no longer.

hannukah songs

2006-12-16T22:20:00.002-05:00

are currently playing on npr

yeah right now

so go listen to them before the christmas carols come back!

hannukah songs

2006-12-16T22:20:00.001-05:00

are currently playing on npr

yeah right now

so go listen to them before the christmas carols come back!

sergent pepper's lonely hearts band yeah...

2006-12-16T22:15:00.000-05:00

do you know what bothers me?
people who wear sweats and pajama pants during school.

I find this is especially a problem during exams.
but seriously guys
exams aren't that hard to the point where you need to be extra comfortable in order to perform your best.
ew.
you know, if I can make the effort to shower, brush my teeth, and put fresh clothes on in the morning so can you.

please just put some jeans on!

in other news
muumy bought me and norah really cute sweaters at buckle for hannukah
which makes me wicked spoiled
considering I'm getting drivers ed and a trip to israel.
but
it's very cute
red sweater with three really big buttons after a big v neck thing
::sighs::
would look really amazing with my gray dress pants and that white tanktop that I absolutley adore.
can't wait to wear it to services

seriously sometimes I think that there really isn't a function to going to temple every saturday except to be seen wearing my amazing outfits.
really though, it's just my fault that my dress up clothes are more gorgy than the everyday casual sort.
too bad for me.

that's the end.

I don't like to watch ugly betty on tv
it's kind of a retarded show...
but the office is pretty cool =D

hannukah

2006-12-15T22:15:00.000-05:00

today is the first day of hannukah

my mummy made roast chicken and latkes with green beans
it was amazing

I think that latkes are most definitely the best part of hannukah.

my favorite hannukah story is that time that we were playing "hannukah time" in band in the sixth grade, with mr berryhill who was our band director. I had band eight period (or possibly ninth) but there was another sixth grade class that had him fourth period. he pronounced in cha-noo-key-aaah because it was spelled with the ch and he didn't get the chach ::insert phlegm producing noise here for those unfamiliar with chachies:: he called it cha-noo-key-aah time all day and though that fourth period was playing a prank on him when they let him know it was chanuka. he got to my period and I had band with daniel matchar, an-out-of-the-closet-jew whose mother had written the note to mr berryhill that it would be nice to have some hannukah songs on the christmas concert program (or so it was rumored on the sixth grade gossip grapevine). daniel matchar (who has one of those names that you just have to say the whole thing, like jacob beck or ariel fischer) was all like uhh yeah... it actually is pronounced hannukah and mr berryhill was all embarassed. but he was actually kind of a nice guy so whatever.

whatelse

exams suck
chemistry sucks
friends can be disappointing sometimes
memorizing poems is not fun
nor is coming into school early

I think I'm going to try and write in the blog more often... get the CREATIVE JUICES flowing. maybe they'll taste like MANGO or YAMS. ::pick up on the sarcasm::

for those who were wondering, I did indeed manage to get a sentence about yams into my english exam essay ::see things fall apart for manly yam associations:: and I got in five lines in my paper. my english teacher thinks I'm insane but she just doesn't get it.

I got a lap desk from my grandmother for hannukah
she called up my mom and was like I NEED TO BUY HAYLEY A LAPDESK
she gets that way sometimes
but it's okay

I like the lapdesk though
I'm typing on it right now
and it is quite comfy
or whatever a good adjective is for lapdesks anyway...

THE END!

so apparently...

2006-12-13T22:21:00.000-05:00

rory and jess the couple in real life broke up.

::sheds a tear::

::winces at the lack of sarcastic appreciation of the nonexistent readers::

I guess that means jess isn't coming back to replace logan as rory's BEAU
which is just too bad if you ask me

but did you see that fist fight last tuesday
in a nutshell
A
M
A
Z
I
N
G

that fairy tale ending...

2006-12-13T22:17:00.000-05:00

I must admit, if there's a sucker for rewritten fairy tales with happy cute sappy endings, it's me. I just can't help it.

the other day, I finished this book by shannon hale. it was this sequel that she wrote to this sequel (that I didn't read) to the original book (which I did read) which was a retelling of the goose girl and her talking horse. and at each of the end of the books all of the characters end up together. entwined in a big sappy mess of luuurrrrve.

and I eat it up.

I kind of wish that I lived in a fairytale.
I could have a happy ending.
live in a big castle with my one true love.
go on hunting expeditions on my talking horse.
light fires or draw water using BRAIN POWER!!

but not really
I mean
I don't think I actually want ANY of those things
but a happy ending might be nice

might be nice

so apparently....

2006-11-19T21:13:00.000-05:00

alexis bledel (rory on gilmore girls) has been dating jess (whose real name I can never remember) since he appeared on the show.
so weird!

I hate it when tv show characters get all "we've been dating for six years" on me.

maybe jess should come back.
oh yes.
rory should dump logan and end up with JESS

who should shave off that funky goatee thing he's got going.

it's sort of like one of those pointy triangle numbers.

ok
THE END!

fall leaves

2006-10-27T21:26:00.000-04:00

today I went geocashing at university lake.

we went canoeing to find the geocash and it was
cold
wet
rainy

aboslutely gorgeous

the leaves are so pretty right now, especially there. they were in full swing, orange, red, brown, a few slow greens. all framing the lake and reflecting in the black glassy water.

breathtaking.

the end of jacob black

2006-10-27T21:12:00.000-04:00

in the two days after I finished ranting about jacob black I had two dreams. each were about a character a jacob black but not jacob black. needless to say, after being haunted by our favorite native american werewof, I became rather tired of his character. tragic yes but not meant to be obsessed over. the day after I had the second dream I spent all day thinking about what I would post when I got the chance. that was thursday and by the time I got home from school and done with my flute lesson and finished with dinner it seemed sort of stupid. I lost momentum and (quite obviously) never made the post. which isn't such of a loss as it may seem, considering the fact that the two dreams I had were weird. very weird.

the first was about this teenage mother from the deep south (she spoke with a heavy southern twang) who's baby's father dumped her. she ended up with a jacob black but there was sort of hope at the end of the dream. like, even though she didn't end up with her "true love" (he was sort of an asshole anyway) there's still hope for happiness.

the second dream wasn't quite as clean cut and involved a certain freshman I sit next to in one of my classes. we were in a car and he was like jacob black but in this kid's body, only supersize. (does that make any sense?). it was bizarre hung over me all day.

that was when I decided that I was ready to be done with jacob black.

until the next book comes out at least ;)

more jacob black

2006-10-24T21:57:00.000-04:00

ok
for some reason
I can't seem to shake this jacob black
he's hanging over my head
or my chest rather
I just feel like
I can't quite explain it

perhaps it's because
jacob black's don't show up in everyday life
and not all of us has a jacob black to fall back on when life gets particularly rough.
does anyone have a jacob black?

I think I could've ended up with jacob black in the end
if he was a foot shorter
and jewish

::sighs dramatically::

there is just too much to expect of a modern jacob black
but what else can one expect from his creator

the girl has to end up with the "true love" in the end
and not the comfortable jacob black

though how would I know?
I'm just a over-philosophical 15 year old who just wishes she had a jacob black to fall back on
I wouldn't take anything I say seriously
if I were you...

oh jacob black! (contains spoilers)

2006-10-24T17:45:00.000-04:00

(after reading stephanie meyer's "New Moon" in which the "star-crossed lovers" bella and edward are seperated. edward runs away to south america [where he prompty curls up into fetal position and tries to comfort himself after ruthlessly breaking up with his "one true love") and leaves bella at home with her father and JACOB BLACK, our ill fated hero)

why is it that the best friend boy always gets his heart broken by the girl when her boyfriend comes back and professes his love? he's like that boy that everyone pretends isn't cute but really is and is so much better than boyfriend #1 (ok so maybe that came from the everwood rerun yesterday... I confess) and so what if the first boyfriend is a vampire who only left the girl because he thought he was doing it for her own good (saving her soul... original huh ::note sarcasm::). the second boy (JACOB BLACK) picked up the pieces when she was feeling lost and alone and just because he is a brand spankn' new werewolf and the other is a vampire (read sworn mortal [or rather immortal haha] enemy) doesn't mean that he should not get the girl. ok so maybe. but still... why can't jacob black ever win the girl once in a while. why can't he be the one who ends up with the girl at the end of the day. not that hooking up with the girl is that which defines our lonely hero, but it would be nice for the sweet steady guy to end up the happy one in the end. not that he won't end up happy if he doesn't get back (sort of) together with the girl.

EPIPHANY

jacob black should get a girl that he deserves as opposed to a broken one.

NEW CONCLUSION

please stephenie meyer! please please please give jacob black the happy ending he deserves.
in fact I think that jacob black may deserve a better ending... simply because he was forced to suffer through losing the girl he loves to his despicable (or so he beleives) enemy.
I mean
how could bella?
she went right back to edward after he left her and her broken heart on the ground in a cold, rainy forest for goodness sakes. and even if he did have a good reason and attempted suicide after he beleived she had died could she really take him back? is there not ALREADY enough damage and mistrust in that relationship?
could bella really take him back without question?
so easily?

needless to say, I like jacob black the best.

in fact...
I think I would pick jacob black over the vampire

ok
so I probably wouldn't

but still...

JACOB BLACK!

the hill

2006-10-10T10:42:00.000-04:00

is my favorite place to be at school
especially in between classes
when it's not crowded with all of the stupid freshmen (**see disclaimer below**)
and it's quiet
and warm
and
when my ipod's on
I can close my eyes
and pretend
only just
that I'm
not
at
school

torture chamber
that
it
is

**one does not actually have to be a freshman in order to be a stupid freshman, it just sounds better than stupid sophmore or stupid junior... nothing against freshman**

the newest substitute development

2006-10-05T20:00:00.000-04:00

my poor (poor in this context meaning yesss she's out!! movies for the rest of the week... but I do feel sort of bad that she's so sick that she's been out all week) french teacher has been sick since last thursday and last week we watched cyrano de bergerac (the best movie ever watched in the history of french class... ever. it's right up there with emma and pride and prejudice) today we watched 101 dalmatians in french (no subtitles, my view on that is xcmnvksdleu) and it's like a pantomime with french
stinky
anyway
so we had a NEW sub today
ms beak
beak like a bird has a beak.
that's what she said
she was just very
relaxy sarcastic
ten bucks that she is the lead singer in guitar subs band?

yesterday

2006-10-05T11:19:00.000-04:00

was such a long day
insane
school
forensics
chem tutuor until 7
dinner
homework
america's next top model
procrastinate
do homework
but at the end
it wasn't as bad as I thought that it would be...

but do you know what happened yesterday during french?
so I posted about guitar sub man right?
well
new sub

this one was subbing french (duh)
and he was wearing a black shirt, black pants, black combat boot things, and black rectangle-y glasses.
He also had earrings and blonde spikey hair
and he read an art nouveau magazine throughout class (whilst I worked on my busy work book work)

and then
at the end
just as the bell rang
he pulled out
from under
the desk
a...
:::drumroll please:::

miniature guitar thing that's in between a full size guitar and a ukalaile but I'm not sure what the technical name is
whatever
the point is
that he pulled it out and started playing

made me smile

I guess subbing is a good day job though
get out at four
no committments
no working
just babysitting some nasty kids all day

but still
why is he a substitute teacher?

the newspaper should totally do a regular circular about substitute teachers in the area
their life stories
why they sub
what their real passion is

I would totally read that
if it was an intersting one
would you?

day three

2006-10-05T11:16:00.000-04:00

of the wild ipod tour and still only one fourth of the way through with song 117
maybe I'm not a hardcore listener.
whatever
the point is that
I listened yesterday for two and a half hours
and at the beginning of that it was fully charged
and now
two hours of listening later
the ipod only has a third left
why can't apple just replace my battery?
sadlfjhasdjcxjhfsoeiyfs

now I have to charge it again
::deep breath::
no more complaining
or ranting
the end

tortured artist

2006-10-03T10:56:00.000-04:00

so the self-centered freshman that sits next to me in ceramics (not to say that all freshmen are self centered, or stupid, or any worse than other kids in the high school but this person is a freshman so whatever. if she was a junior I would say the self centered junior but whatever.)
right anyway
this one considers herself a tortured artist
she draws and is constantly with her ipod (blaring emo music I'm sure)
and she is quite good
very talented
but
everyday she washes only her fourth of the table
like she can't be bothered to clean anyone else's space, even though she's done before everyone else at the table (usually)
today
she leaves the sponge in front of my space (where all my crap is still sitting because I had my ipod on (wild tour of the ipod =D) and didn't hear the teacher call time.
and she's just standing there while I'm rushing around trying to put all of my stuff back and whatever
well not really rushing
but more so than usual
gaa
drives me insane
she does it everyday!!!
whatever

::deep breath::

I guess I should cut her some slack huh
I bet that high school isn't quite the magical fairytale she imagined it to be over the summer

a fresh start
a permanent break from the stupid clique you hang out with but don't really like

not

I know that story quite well
and it's a rude wakeup call

emo fare

2006-10-03T10:51:00.000-04:00

I am currently on a wild tour of my ipod
yes this includes all of those retarded songs that you listened to when you put it on when you first got your ipod at 13 years old.
the rule is that you aren't allowed to skip any songs unless it's really really really bad.
I've got a wide range of funky crap on my ipod
beatles
blink182
weezer
black eyed peas
gwen stefani
maroon5
james galway (at the request of my flute teacher)
etc.
simple plan came up (yes ouch emo gross)
welcome to my life
their #1 hit single bla bla bla
I was listening to it and I realized,
it's a song about how no one can relates or understands you
and life sucks (traditional emo fare)
and yet EVERYONE relates to it
they have thier audience down
pat.

guitar sub

2006-09-25T10:42:00.000-04:00

infamous by name
subbing ceramics today
I have ceramics
second period
he comes
he sits
so out of place
so very out of place
among the clay and the glaze
he sits at a clay stained table
and reveals
from soft nylon case
his prize
electric guitar

he plays
with muffler

sadly
picking at notes
melancholy

I wonder how
he ended up a substitute teacher

of all things
a substitute teacher

phone calls

2006-09-06T21:55:00.000-04:00

so
I just finished making my usy phone calls
they are the most awkward things ever
like the worst, seriously.
have you ever called up some random people that you used to go to sunday school with and see every week on a three day basis but now only see at the two-time jew events (aka rosh hashana and yom kippur) and then call them up and be like hey want to join youth group and most of them are like NO GO AWAY but it would be too awkward if they actually said that so instead they dutifully listen to everything that you have to say even though you know as you are making the phone call that they couldn't be more disinterested and non-plussed.
it's even awkward getting these phone calls because I used to last year when I wasn't on board and I know EXACTLY how the people on the other end of the phone fell because I've totally been there done that.
But I suppose that it could be ok if I could just feel like I made a difference, convinced someone to join usy or come to an event.
I think I just convinced this kid who I haven't seen since yom kippur LAST year (but will be seeing at high holy days in the coming weeks... more <0>) to join the yahoo groups listserve thing, just so he could get me to shut up and stop talking.
oh yes, they joys of usy.
but I love my wheels bus and I'm glad I joined for that at least.
but the phone trees, yeah I could do without those.

ramble ramble ramble...

2006-08-21T22:29:00.000-04:00

I find that I kind of miss my blog. A bit. Though, there's nothing of any importance at all to say. Or at least at this specific moment in time. I guess what I like is people looking at my blog and ackknowledging that I put time into it. Or not even that. I think just knowing that I write it and then people read it. People actually reading it! That's kind of dumb. It's kind of late at night. But not really. Onl(y 10:30.

Do you know what I hated? Not really hated. More like thought was dumb. Was it... eight grade that a certain person (I don't actually remember who) told me that I wrote in my blog about a person whose life was more exciting than my own because I was too pathetic of a loser to write about myself. Please, creative liscense. But that was still when I WAS writing about a fake person. But not because I was pathetic. I was a dumb eigth grader who thought that it was unsafe to post about going to school and hating on my nasty gym teacher, or whether I burned the rice when I tried to make dinner (it smelled so bad that my mom had to dump it out in the backyard [bidegradable!!] and the pot is still charred nearly two years later). Like someone could abuse me on the internet for that.

Of course there was "headgear dave" who claimed to be a college freshman at NYU who wore headgear and saw my blog after he googled (or really msn blog searched) headgear and found an entry of mine which had been about how I used to wear headgear and didn't and then had to have teeth pulled and had just stopped wearing it and for some stupid reason had decided to post to the world that YES HAYLEY USED TO WEAR HEADGEAR. Not even that it's that big of a deal. But I guess that that is just beating around the bush saying that it's not really a big deal but I still kind of think it is a big deal but am kind of embarassed that I think that it is a big deal. He was kind of dumb. Headgear Dave I mean. Come on, a college freshman who still wears headgear?
He also talked extensivly about a dirt eating contest where they washed the dirt beforehand. Kind of funky there headgear dave.

I think that's the end. I wrote kind of a lot. Who knew that I could write so much when I actually had nothing something to say.

just another day at the synogauge...

2006-04-22T21:26:00.000-04:00

ah yes... quite amusing

The first thing that happened was
it started thundering and lightning really loud when the guy was reading the haftorah, but he just kept droning on, it was quite amazing actually because he didn't even pause. I guess thats what happens when you do it every (almost every) week.

The second thing was
Saladelias for lunch
chicken souvlaki rocks my socks

And the third thing that happened was that
G-D SPOKE TO ME!
me and amy were outside after dinner (at the synogauge because it was teacher appreciation havdalah service and since we were ta's...) trying to avoid the "ruach" and the birkat and we were sitting outside on this bench under the roof thing and suddenly it starts raining again... really lots of raining and we see this bolt of lightning and it was kind of close and so we're running back inside (just around the corner... not so far) when this huge clap of thunder sounds (like not even a one-one-thousand in between... like in that book the thunder cake or whatever). Needless to say we went back into the social hall and stopped avoiding our fate.

The last thing that happened was
At the havdalah service someone had a grand idea to give all the small children (mostly second graders but also some kindergarteners and a few older kids/parents) havdalah candles, which are not regular candles but these huge 3 wick ones with huge flames as a result of so many wicks. So these kids were poorly supervised and they were totally about to give me a heart-attack because hey... it was a disaster waiting to happenand was scary!

and thats it
a boring sunday (sans kindergarteners :'( ahead

time to take out the trash

2006-04-16T16:20:00.000-04:00

so yesterday I watched a dumb movie
and today I read a dumb book
and believe it or not
the story lines were pretty similar (and equally trash-y).

stupid lifetime movie:
denise richards stars as a wedding planner who has ocd (I'm not even kidding, that's seriously part of the plot...)
complicated ups and downs ensue...
timeline anyone?
1. breaks up with her husband (tried to cheat on her with her sister>>notice this detail because it will come back to bite you in the butt) but they are still legally married.
2. gets a huge wedding order at work (naw... not the the SAUSAGE KINGS DAUGHTER! why we'll be the talk of the town)
3. is at another wedding and when the groom decides to rappel down the church (?) and gets stuck meets a fire fighter and flirts
4. finds out that firefighter man is engaged to her client
5. firefighter (un)hottie makes various moves on poor ocd afflicted wedding planner... takes her to a park and when she jumps off a carousel in an attempt to get away from him (as she realizes that what she is doing is wrong...) twists her ankle. He takes her to the ER and makes her breakfast the next morning bla bla bla
6. Planner goes to work and finds client had a fight with her fiancee... he comes in and surprise surprise
7. Finds out that client is actually engaged to firefighter man's BROTHER (also a firefighter (un)hottie)
8. Two weeks before wedding and sausage king's daughter wants to move her wedding up because she is pregnant with her fiancees brother
9. I don't remember how but somehow she finds out that the two (un)hottie's have yet another brother!... decides to forgive original firefighter man
10. Wedding planner freaks out and storms out on her and firefighter man's date that night
11. Planner gets her ex to come over and finally sign the divorce papers... but on his way out he sees DUN DUN DUN... firefighter man and lets him know that they're "married"
12. ultimate reconciliation at wedding.
and finally
13. A wedding of ocd wedding planner's own... with the original (un)hottie as the groom... but with his other brothers ayears when she nd sausage kings daughter standing by.
**insert between every other word jokes that are meant to be witty but instead come off as incredibly stupid (in part because they are incredibly stupid)

stupid book not worth printing on paper
1. girl breaks up with her boyfriend of four years when she goes to college
2. girl converses with lesbian (again weird/random but strangely part of the actual plot...) sister via email
3. girl meets sorority ready roomate who is a pagant beauty queen
4. girl decides to flirt with boys every day for a month (with the help of roomie and lesbian sister)
5. girl meets "hottie" at newspaper
6. girl finds "hottie" is taken
7. girls ex comes down for the weekend... they break up all over again
8. girl gets involved with a boy exactly like her ex
9. girl breaks up with clone of ex
10. girl learns that "hottie" is single after all
11. girl gets together with hottie
**insert between every word cheap alcohol/beer (because no one cards you at college), ugly skirts, and designer coffees (which every college student can afford despite lack of a job and humble beginnings in new joisey)

so dumb
must clense my mind...

weird R rated movies and me

2006-04-15T21:14:00.000-04:00

yes... I've watched many these past few days... shall I list?

Thumbsucker
Still a thumbsucker at 17 he tries to replace his "habit" with others, such as...
**riddalin (stops when he learns it is only 3 molecules away from cocaine and has a huge breakdown at a debate state championship)
**a weird girl who uses him because she knows he won't hurt her (well duh... he still sucks his thumb and he's a senior in high school...)
**pot (this habit is stopped when his supply is cut off from the above)
Finally he is on the plane to him dream college in New York after he has finished and he is dreaming about his dream career (an anchorman) and then he realizes he is talking like he has something in his mouth...
He wakes up and is sucking his thumb.

The Squid and the Whale
Mummy (a up and coming writer who has been having affairs since she and pops were married) decides she and daddy-o (also a writer who is now quite unsuccesful and instead is a college professor) need a divorce (he hit her with a tennis ball too hard during a "playful" match). Dad buys a house on the other side of the park (they live in Brooklyn... next to a park?) dun dun dun. The place is a dump.
Well Dad decides to offer a room to his risquee college student who writes racy sex scenes for her class and at first older son sides with Dad and younger son with Mom until this happens and he sees his dad and lust (the racy college student) getting busy (she decides to move out the next morning... go figure). Meanwhile mom is having an affair with younger brother's tennis instructor.
And on top of it all the younger brother (9) is getting drunk all the time and mastrubating and spreading the semen around school. Yippee!
Whats more it's all based on a true story...
quite disturbing I know.

Walk the Line (ok ok this one's only PG-13 and not indie I know but still weird)
I learned three things...
**Johnny Cash had a traumetizing childhood
**Johnny Cash had a severe speed problem caused by his traumetizing childhood
**Joaquin (sp) Pheonix has something funny going on with his lips not functioning properly that was totally bugging me throughout the entire movie

bubble boy

2006-04-14T22:54:00.000-04:00

I haven't posted in forever.
I guess it doesn't really matter because everyone stopped checking it anyway. Thats ok.

I saw this totally depressing documentary on pbs about this kid who lived in a bubble his whole life (literally) and it made me really sad.

Like it was tuesday and now it's friday and it's still depressing me.
Like he lived in a bubble his whole life.
Was so terrified of germs that he had these huge anxiety problems about them killing him.
It was so sad.
So so so so sad.
Poor baby.

back

2006-01-15T19:38:00.000-05:00

I know all those nonexistent people reading my blog are jumping for joy at my return.

you know your french (or other worldly language) teacher wishes she was still 16 when...

2006-01-15T19:33:00.000-05:00

**you see her checking her myspace during class
**she has never been seen wearing heels less then 3 inches high
**when on the rare occasion she does show up in red pumas and is asked why she goes into a lengthy rant about her sex life
**she is the most provocative dresser in school
**gets a chiauaua for christmas from her fiancee
**names the dog after her (not native) paris
**she spends a whole period talking about how her boyfriend proposed*****
**she teaches high school french for goodness sakes!

*****I admit... that was my previous french teacher who spend the period talking about the exact method her boyfriend used to propose but I think that it fits with the rest of the list.

you know your day is going to be bad when by first period you...

2006-01-15T19:26:00.000-05:00

**wish your math teacher had never been born (then he couldn't have assaigned that incredibly hard math test you took today... could he have?)
**are already listening to blink 182 on your ipod
**are disgusted by all your obnoxious peers who have replaced their ipod mini with a nano or video ipod
**are already thinking of how school squashes creativity and teaches the new generation how to be followers
**think how much better life would have been if the neolithic revolution had never happened
**take back the previous argument and thank g-d for showers

pride and prejudice

2005-12-10T23:11:00.001-05:00

was fabulous
omg
I love it every time I see it...
if only we could all be so lucky
to have such a horrifically romantic experience

the only thing it was missing
was the mothers squeaky
MISTER DAWSEEEEEEEEEE
but other than that
fabulous...

**sighs**

**sighs again**

and then the witches illegitimate son has an illegitimate child with this other girl and the baby is green proving that he is THE son of THE witch

2005-12-09T16:25:00.000-05:00

yup
and that was pretty much the plot line for son of a witch (ie sequel to wicked for those imbeciles out there...)
needless to say
I'm kind of dissapointed

oh... and did I mention?
the baby was conceived while he was comatose...(?)

I beleive gregory maguire was high on some sort of drug while writing this book...
I mean to think up something that random???
is beyond me

made

2005-12-05T20:34:00.000-05:00

I'm watching made. its the one where the morbidly-obese-fat-guy tries to be a soccer player. I love made. it's like the best show on mtv (with maybe the exception of laguna beach?) anyway. so all of his friends are girls and when the coach guy sends him to soccer camp to make friends (and improve his nonexistent soccer skills) and he does so with the girls. I feel sort of bad for him even though he made made. his rolls of fat don't quite fit into his jersey and his man boobs are popping out. can you say EWWWW.

anway anyway anyway

i walked home today. I missed my ride and it was freezing and raining/icing (only not really icing just kind of chunky cold cold cold rain and it was windy. and I splashed in the puddles. and it was fun until my shoess got all wet. well... as much fun as you can have when your walking home by yourself in the freezing cold icy rain and nasty wind etc etc.

and thats it.

I tried a myspace but I found that it was actually more fun to just mess around on anna ruth's myspace then to build my own... how pathetic is that lol.

well

I don't have anything else to say.

maybe later... when something good has happened

ice princess

2005-11-25T21:09:00.000-05:00

very possibly the worst movie I've seen in a long time...

bored

2005-11-23T08:25:00.000-05:00

we're reading black boy in school and i though I would post a totally meaningful and provacative essay about how stupid the jim crowe laws were... but then the anger subsided
and now
i am officially BORED
with mon blog
so
i guess thats it
maybe a
myspace?
though the point of those is a little bit questionable...
show off how many "friends" you have?
take a dumb quiz that shows you which laguna beach character you are?
don't really know
but everyone has one so it cant be that bad
i'm obviously just missing something here.
so yup
thats my last entry
for a while i think...

things people dont like:

2005-11-05T14:07:00.000-05:00

(gleaned from the funny stickers I found in a VW beetle ad in the people magazine...)
1. anchovies
2. low service on cell phones
3. port-a-potties
4. cockroaches
5. panty-hose
6. dirty dishes
7. bad (80s era) hair
8. speedos
9. this one is stupid... I will rebel and not include it...
10. hair nets
11. doctors... also latex gloves
12. rusty nails
13. when there is no toliet paper left on the roll
14. ugly (80s era) facial hair
15. scary mask-y things... monsters
16. detours
17. burnt toast
18. brussel sprouts
19. skunks... and the smells they make
20. when gum gets stuck on your shoe...
21. tevas with socks
22. windy days
23. fruitcake
24. mosquitos, mosquito bies
25. waking up early
26. coleslaw
27. unibrows
28. pickled pigs feet... some things are just not meant to be eaten
29. mondays
30. a hole in you socks
31. long fingernails
32. pen leakage in your white shirt
33. when the meter runs out
34. when your ice cream falls on the floor
35. peeling of a band-aid

pretty funny I think...
I love the stickers
though VW beetles are ugly

a list of my 35 least favortie things to come...
maybe

but now I've got to thouroughly analyze lord of the flies
for my english teacher who has ppms
who else would assaign so much shit over the weekend???

don't hold your breath

2005-11-02T19:42:00.000-05:00

until you pass out

So I still don't really have anything of interest to say, but blogging anyway. I think out of habit. It's kind of a comfort to post my not-so-innermost thoughts and feelings on line. I also like typing on my gorgie laptop. The keys are so cool. And maybe thats a dumb reason to post... but maybe I'm a dumb person so...

yeah.

Annnnnyway.... so I saw a goooood movie a few weekends ago... Proof. good but sadd. especially since I have the unfortunate talent of predicting the end of the movie before it ends and getting it right. Like in Just Like Heaven I knew that she was in a coma... not dead. And in proof... well I won't spoil the ending but I got that right too. It's not really something to be proud of. The movie plot Alines are just all so similar. My dad says that all of the tv shows on right now come from 3 basic storylines... 2 of them from I love Lucy. Which tells you something about media today... if you believe my dad.

EWWW a funny lady just came on pbs (of which my mother is watching) her hair is sprayed and cuuuuurvy. And now I'm done posting.

SURPRISE SURPRISE

hg dave UPDATE

2005-11-02T19:41:00.000-05:00

I replied to your comment the same way I did the last time. Sorry it took me so long to reply (and I think I said that in the comment too but whatever...)

social skills 101

2005-11-02T19:31:00.000-05:00

I really like this title but I don't want to expand upon it. Though I definately could go into a rant about some of the freaks that unfortunately attend my school...

thats it

one of those suckass days

2005-11-01T17:27:00.000-05:00

because it was.
but i wont expand
and if i didn't have anything important to say last week...
then i really have nothing now.
except this:
I SNEEZED
AND NO ONE SAID BLESS YOU
but its ok because it never really happened.

OH AND halloween was kick ass
its the first house we've been to alll nigh!!!

hg dave:

2005-10-17T20:18:00.000-04:00

sorry it took me so long to respond to your comment but I did so as a comment after the comment that you left. so if you care check there (ha it rhymes)

update!

2005-10-17T20:06:00.000-04:00

Wow I can't believe I haven't posted in like 2 weeks. I hadn't logged in in so long that this time the blogger really forget my username. Must update!!! So umm yeah. I guess I've just been busy lately. Very busy. Lots of homework. Like today I just finished summarizing chapter 2 in note/picture/question for for history fun fun. We're starting Lord of the Flies in english and when I was at Borders, buying my book, and I was looking it up on the little computer-y thing that they have there- you know, the one with the funny rolly mouse? Well anyway the description was so funny! It was like "an adult themed book about small boys who are stranded on a desert island..." har dee har har. Went to the statefair on Saturday. Gee that was horrible. bad smells + nasty fried things + smelly people + rednecks + farmers + FFA-ers + smelly animals + the fattest pick + the prettiest cow + the biggest pumpkin ever (which I actually saw) + the biggest zuchinni + the yummiest paper-plate-chocolate-chip-cookies = THE STATE FAIR. The only thing I didn't see was the carnies/freak show, though there was a stand "come see the smallest horse ever" stand next to the exhibition whole. I just can't believe that people would pay MONEY to look at another person!!! How inhuman can you get? Even if its a descion that you made yourself. The same goes for zoos I guess but I think thats at least a little different. I mean, you don't pay money to look at them because they are different, you pay money so you can enrich yourself in the different biomes and their animals of the world. That was a little wordy but thats ok. Not like anyone's reading this anyway. And then yesterday I saw the Wallace and Grommet movie yesterday with Anna Ruth. CLAYMATION!!! My dad says that they take billions of years to make because you have to build all the stuff and then film it, moving the clay just a little bit at a time so that it looks right. It was funny though. The best part of the whole movie was the Madagascar penguins short at the beginning... they are so cute!! Ok I think I'm done now but I will post tomorrow!!! maybe.

long time no see

2005-10-07T19:36:00.000-04:00

I haven't posted in so long that the blogger home page forgot it was me and had to reask for my screenname. Just kidding. But I wish it had so that I could post about it. I did anyway though so thats ok. I don't think I've posted for two weeks, not since October started. First things first:

I never exactly replied to headgear Dave's second set of questions. Ne quittez pas Dave... (hold on) as I find them...

You said (my replies are starred):

Hey there. This is headgear Dave (wow, I hate how that sounds.) And I DID finally end up seeing your response to my posting. Your concern is noted, by the way, but I must ask, what exactly is a headgear stalker, anyway?
**ok so sorry about labeling you as headgear dave but I currently have a minor obsession with reading the advice columns in the paper and "ask amy" always characterizes people by their problems... I just couldn't resist. and a headgear stalker would be a creepy freak.
I've had the gear now for several weeks and - if you can believe this - have thus far kept it a total secret from ALL people in the dorm, despite having a rommate and wearing it 7 hours a day! It helps that my roommate has a g/f and almost never sleeps here....
**I think it's really impressive that you've been able to hide it from everyone in your dorm.
Anyways, five years in headgear sounds cruel! Is it 5 years because you didn't wear the thing? And do you still technically have it and are supposed to wear it?
**Five years in headgear is very cruel! and no, even if I had worn it it would still have been five years of nights from hell. I no longer am forced to wear my headgear (as decreed by my orthodontist) and as a consequence I'm gaving teeth pulled in three weeks.

Since you're cool (even though you have hg!),
**CORRECTION: I no longer have headgear...
I do have a few more questions:
1) Did you wake up in the mornings (that you didn't cheat) without it being on, having tossed it subconsciously?
2) What did you do when you had to sneeze with it on? Did you have time to get it off before you did? I can't believe that I have yet to sneeze while wearng it, though I'm dreading doing that.

Thanks for the help. HG Dave
ok so:
1. I have never tossed my headgear off while I was sleeping partially because its (well duh) wrapped very tightly around my head. This question is making me wonder whether you seriously have headgear or your really just some creepy hg stalker. ewwww. i hope not because that might seriously make me puke that i had contact with someone as disgusting as that,
2. I've never sneezed with it on because whenever I had a cold I gave myself hg leave. It is difficult to blow your nose while wearing hg though... usually i would take it off before hand.

your very welcome headgear dave!

I would post more but my fingers are tired...

the o.c. new season

2005-09-15T20:36:00.000-04:00

I'm watching The O.C. the new season. I've been hooked ever since it was discovered that Marissa was a lesbian (even though she was just experimenting... she's back with Ryan now I think...). Now she shot Trey and got herself expelled from school. I liked the episode where Caleb dies though... nice and twisty and just as the slutty wife was just about to murder him of an overdoes of sleeping pills too. And now Summer is trying to expose crack addict/slutty vixen Taylor for the bitch she truly is. At least thats what I've seen so far (I haven't been watching very long though... I just got back from a lesson with my (new flute teacher)). Add to it all that Adam Brody could possibly be the hottest guy in today's media (and Jewish... two birds with one stone, even though he is too old for me and taken with his on and off screen girlfriend Rachel Bilson) and you have yourself one stellar show. Except for Gilmore Girls. I think that's my all time favorite show. At least for now. Until Marissa decides that she is a lesbian again...

I was thinking about life not on earth... you know aliens and martians and stuff. And I guess I'm what might be called A Believer. Not A True Beleiver... I haven't seen every X-Files known to man (in fact the show gives me the heebie-jeebies) but I have read Ender's Game and Ender's Shadow and once I even attemped to read the sequels also by Orson Scott-Card (attempted because I tried and failed... looked for them at the library and after the first could not be located I gave up and lost the ambition to ever try again). And I (obviously) think that aliens exisit somewhere... even if we as humans can't see them. As I was on this subject I was thinking how lonely I would feel if I knew that there was only life on Earth and nowhere else. The same sort of feeling you get after Thanksgiving, when everyone comes to your house and it's so loud and crazy for a few days and then on Sunday or maybe Saturday they all go back to their respective homes and you're left with this empty house and this horrible empty feeling inside.

I was going to expand on that but I think it's probably too weird to think about. Maybe. Not like anyone is reading this anyway. And now the O.C. is over and I have Chapter Four (Chinese and Indus River Valley Civilizations) still to read in my history book. So. Tata. ForNow.

fall

2005-09-14T17:42:00.000-04:00

all of the leaves in my yard suddenly turned orange and fell of their respective trees. i guess that means that fall is here... or almost here anyway, considering that the temperature outside is currently 90 degrees give or take and my parents still won't let me wear the oh-so cute sweaters i purchased at the end of the summer. and by the time i actually wear them they will be out of style. but thats ok. i like them anyway. but omg omg omg

my clothes came today from american eagle!! yay!! in their own little plastic packaging and everything. they even still had fold lines. i love that. knowing that no one else has ever tried them on before, that i will be the sole and only wearer (until norah inhereits them or they go to charity/ the thrift store). i don't know why. i guess its because i am such a selfish bitch but thats ok.

i've just been busy lately. with high school and homework and whatnot. none of it is interesting enough to write about though/unfortunately. i'm babysitting today. from 7:00-9:20 while the babysittee's mom (and my mom) go to a religous school meeting. or something like that.

anna ruth's house was cool last weekend. it feels like yesterday even though it was five days ago. amazing, time goes by so fast i wonder where it has all gone.

east merchandise goes on sale on fridays. perhaps i'll manipulate my parents into buying me a $30 sweatshirt. it's also club week at east. i think i mentioned that in my last post but thats ok. i signed up for amnesty international and the service hours learning club (my mom wanted me to). it kind of surprised me when i traveled to upper quad c today (where club week is being held) and saw the christian fellowship club thing. they had posters that said "g-d loves you" and one of the girls was singing a gospel and playing along on her guitar. i guess they're allowed to have their own thing but then shouldn't all the other religions have clubs too? like the jap club? the hindu club? united-islams-of-america? it doesn't seem equal but i guess when there's not an interest...

hurricane ophelia is hitting the outer banks as i type. i think it was upgraded into a category two. oh just kidding. the weatherman says that it is a "furious category one" which seems sort of silly because obviously it is absolutely nothing compared to katrina. i doubt that "ophelia" will add to the list of retired names, camille, floyd, katrina etc etc. i guess thats all for now. having dinner soon. lamb chops and garlic primavera risotto.

uh oh. the atlantic beach pier just collapsed. perhaps its a bit worse than i thought. i mean not the destruction of new orleans but it is moving so slowly that the winds and rain pound unrelentlessly before finally letting up. it's hard to identify when we're not getting any rain though. for goodness sakes i think we're actually in a drought! the sky is a nasty color though.. a disgusting gray. gray skies are the worst. sunny and cloudless cool, stormy cool, but gray is just so gray and bleh. makes me sad. i was born in rochester, new york and my mom says that when we lived there the gray skies made her so sad. everyday, gray for the entire winter and a good part of spring and fall too. i don't think i could ever live somewhere so depressing.

speaking of depressing i'm reading a very depressing book. it's called I wonder when you'll miss me and it's about this (fat) girl who tries to commit suicide after being raped at school. she goes to this rehab place and loses tons of weight and returns to her home 6 months later but still doenst fit in. and to top it off she's haunted by her former fat (thats the only reason why i mentioned her weight issue) self. which classes her as a skitzophrenic (spelled wrong i know). and her father died suddenly of a brain anyruesm when she was 11. and her only friend in rehab (or ever)commited suicide (while in rehab) by drinking a gallon of cleaning fluid. and im only on page 50 or so. she still has to run away from home etc. i dont know why i like reading those books. i think they make me feel better about my own situation. and speaking of that:

today on oprah there was a special about these people that think they're ugly, hideous, monsters even though most of them are all pretty normal (or even above average looking). extreme disorted body image. this one woman had like 26 plastic surgeries even though she was only 28 and looked like a scary version of barbie. her nose was like 3 sizes to small and her lipe 10 sizes too big (even bigger than angelina jolie's i know... hard to believe huh) her hair was beautiful though. it was platnium blonde and long and shiny and flowy. it was her best feature by far. other people couldn't drive cars because the mirror distracted him so much, he just wanted to stare at himself and think about how he could make himself look better. it just made me feel better about my own situation. it could be worse.

**breaking news**breaking news**breaking news**breaking news**breaking news**breaking news**breaking news**breakin
THE WEATHERLADY IS AN IDIOT~THE WEATHER LADY IS AN IDIOT~THE WEATHER LADY IS AN IDIOT~THE WEATHER LADY IS A
ok: so there's a hurricane going on and its raining and hurricane strength winds and 1.5 foot flooding and the weather lady is out there saying "its raining really hard now" and "this is why everyone had to evacutate" not to mention "the flooding is coming up to my knee" and "you can tell just how strong the wind is... it's blowing me this-away". thats really the smart thing to do. next thing she''ll be knocking on the doors of the houses losing their shingles and ask the people inside exactly why they did not evacuate even though it was mandatory by the governor of nc. dinner is served

maybe i'll post some more later when i have more to say. though i realzied i just wrote a lot a lot a lot even though i supposedly had nothing to say. whatever/later. (l8r!!)

headgear dave?

2005-09-11T19:47:00.000-04:00

recently "headgear dave" has left 2 comments on my blog about (what else...) headgear (hence the name). so "h.d." (if you're even reading this and not some creepy stalker guy) i know i've been slow to reply because i've been busy this week and haven't had anything to say and i won't reply to your email because i'm paranoid like that but whatever.
here are the answers to your questions:
1. there is absolutely no way to make headgear less dorky (sorry but it's kind of a dumb question, i mean it's a thing that goes around your head and a metal thing that sticks out of your mouth)
2. the pain is pretty bad for the first 2-4 weeks if you wear it every night but it lessens as you continue
3. 6 months is so not a long time!!! i've had my headgear for 5 years!!!
4. no of course none of my friends have never seen me in headgear... what kind of loser do you think i am??
i do sort of feel for you though. it must totally suck to wear it in a dorm. i would die. of course it might be a dumb idea to listen to me abo ut headgear. seeing as i neglected to wear it and am now having permanent teeth pulled in november as a result. so yeah. thats about it. try sleeping on a down pillow as opposed to a regular one, when i was actually wearing my torchure device i found it was easier to sleep with the pillolw conforming around my misshapen headgeared head.

i'd love to stay and post about my boring day but i have a large history quiz tomorrow on ancient egypt etc. exciting exciting.

purple walls

2005-09-08T20:26:00.000-04:00

I haven't posted in a while. I've been pretty busy lately. And I'm not just saying that either. My journal (which I had been writing in regularly every day since June) has been lying unopened on my bedside table. Which (for the record) is actually sitting in the hall right now because my room was finally painted purple this weekend. Purple Easter Egg, which is a horrible name for the most beautiful color. It's like the most perfect purple color and it's on my walls.

After we (ok, after my parents) finished painting my room it was smelly for a few days and as they didn't want the paint fumes to intoxicate me so the first night after the room was done I slept in the guest room. But it was really creepy in there, with my cheap-o desk, candy machine, computer, and all other worldly possessions all stacked precariously around the bed and on the rocking chair. So for the past few nights I ended up sleeping on the cot in Norah's room while my mom finished up my bedskirt. Including tonight. So when the O.C. premiere ends in a few seconds (it was rather unsatisfying tonight by the way, I prefer Gilmore Girls so much better) thats where I will be headed. So I think I'll end this post. I have such the headache... More tommorrow because its FRIDAY! YAY FRIDAY!! VIVE LE VENDREDI LOL.

hurricane katrina

2005-08-31T20:19:00.000-04:00

I've been kind of busy lately. What with high school and the promised load of homework. I worked for two and a half hours when I got home from school today and worked straight through till dinner at 7. Anyway. Here's the point of the post:

Hurricane Katrina came through earlier this week. When it hit land and my grandmother's house (Clearwate, FL) it was a category one. But by the time it hit New Orleans at the mouth of the Mississippi River it was a category five (I think...) and New Orleans was quickly flooded with 16 feet of water (right?) and hit with 95 mph winds (I think) which whipped through the streets and together the two destroyed the only bridge that leads in and out of the city. Watching the "Aftermath" news program on tv its astounding to see this damage and the death toll. And this in the US! The land of Milk and Honey. Things like this aren't supposed to happen here. I mean yeah, natural disasters occur, but we deal with them... don't we? We make sure that everyone is evacuated in time and prepare so that even if everyone isn't able to get out there is enough food and water supplies to go around. And yet here are these people on the news. Their lives and homes have been devastated by this hurricane and they are waiting in the sweltering 90 degree plus weather in gigantic lines that snake behind the super-grocery stores and they're waiting in line for a single plastic bag of groceries handed to them through a tiny, muddy hole in the wall. As they are waiting a fire truck brings "relief"... a huge tarmac filled with dirty water that people are eagerly splashing all over themselves and dipping their babies into it. One man shakes his water bottle, filled one eight of the way up and states in his deep-southern accent "this is all the water I have to my name, right here." It's so surprising that the aftermath could be this bad in the US. It's not a third world country. Though conditions in New Orleans right now are pretty bad.

Mr. Brown, my world history teacher, told us today in class (while we were talking about public works in ancient civilizations) that the people in the hurricane shelters down there have no place for all their waste. It smells so bad and soon they won't be able to stay healthy (as healthy as you can be with scarcities of food and water and no way to practice good hygeine skills) with all the waster surrounding them. My mom says that people are being told to move the dead bodies (dead bodies!! there shouldn't be any dead bodies to begin with!!) away from where they're staying. The stench is so bad. And where is the governor of Mississippi while all this is going on? Washington D.C. is my best guess. And what is he doing about it? About as much as our wonderful president is doing to bring down gas prices, another huge issue. In Chapel Hill gas went up 20 cents just yesterday!! I'm disgusted. ugh.

high school**

2005-08-27T10:59:00.000-04:00

i've been pretty lazy lately... i haven't posted in a couple days. (but i guess it doesn't matter anyways because no one is reading this... just posting for my own sanity) or at least thats how it feels. i know this time last week i was at the beach and it seems like forever ago already. even orientation seems like a long time ago and it was only wednesday!!

there's a usy pool party tonight that i have to go to. im only really going because i haven't seen amy since she went to vermont. i haven't seen anna ruth since may but she can't come. soccer soccer soccer.

not looking forward to school on monday. meeting new people is hard. it's so weird not knowing everyones name!! but i guess i'll get used to it. so many books to carry. my geometry teacher (piggot) requests that we bring our books everyday. he's seems like a cool teacher but yesterday he actually had us read the first section of the math book instead of teaching it to us. don't know how great of a teacher he is... i mean what kind of math teacher makes you read the book?? i've never been taught that way before.

and then in band there are 13 flutes (counting me). i guess this makes sense because the only people who really continued in band are freaks like me looking to meet people. and most of those people happen to be girls. who play the flute. or at least thats how i see it but i guess thats a little stereotypical. or a lot stereotypical actually but thats ok. most of the people who didn't really like the class but took it for an easy A dropped out. leaving the dregs of the band. the rest of the sections are pretty balanced though. i hope that the band director does't just have half the flutes sit out. that would make me really mad. a waste of my time. i'm taking an extra zero period to fit band in... the least i could do is play. i hope thats not the way things shake out but if it is i will switch classes. probably to being a TA which is not very exciting or productive but even so a better use of my time then watching others play in band while i sit there. we're doing chairs this year too (chairs are when you compete to be "first chair" and the best in your section). that should sufficiently suck. it did for the bried period that we had chairs in sixth grade. but thats ok. whatever.

i don't really know what else to say so i suppose i should finish this rambly post already.

band

2005-08-23T09:49:00.000-04:00

am i the only one who signed up for band again this year?? g/d it sucks but its too late to change my schedual now. i only signed up because my mom made me. she's scared i wont meet anyone if im not in any "specialty classes" or whatever. grr. we'll just have to see how much the first day sucks lol.

sand dollar theives

2005-08-21T16:56:00.000-04:00

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I was at the beach and I only got back yesterday night.

My vacation was too lengthy to recound online but there is one thing I would like to share.

There's not much wildlife at the beach where I go to in Kiawah (SC) but if you wade waist deep during the low tide , and dive under the water and come up with a handful of sand you can get a few hermit crabs each time. If you feel around with your feet you might find a sand dollar or possibly a welk. Lots of sand dollars. Norah found like 6 each day. Anyway here's the point: there was this couple (newlyweds, my Dad said) and for 3 days we saw them go out at low tide and collect sand dollars. The man would pile them up, as many as he could find in his hand. Then when they had "enough" (in quotations because we saw them collecting every day) they would put them up on the sand (hot hot sand) to dry. Killing the sand dollars! Grr, I mean, I know it's just a sand dollar but it was still alive. And they must have found at least 40 sand dollars. 40 sand dollars dead and hanging in somebody's bathroom. Even though they're lives didn't mean much no one deserves to bake on the sand. It was really hot too, peaked at 104 on on Wednesday I believe.

We also went kayaking in a blackwater swamp which was really cool. The water is turned black by the same additives put into tea to give it such a lovely color. The water was a beautiful amber-y brown. Very nice.

Another highlight was all the yummy dinners. I love seafood. She-crab soup is my favorite ever. Back to regular eating is painful.

Highschool orientation is on Wednesday. I'm so excited!!

life after life after late fees

2005-08-11T10:43:00.000-04:00

After a recent trip to Blockbuster to rent a movie or two (Chicago and A Walk to Remember in case the nonexistent reader should care) I was reading the receipt in the car and noticed something quite scam-ish. Blockbuster claims to "Life After Late Fees" but upon closer inspection I discovered that it actually says:
"There is no additional rental charge if a member keeps a rental item up to 7 days beyond the pre-paid rental period. After 7 days beyond the due date, Blockbuster will automatically convert the rental to a purchase on the 8th day and will charge the member the selling price for the item in effect at the time of the rental, minus the rental fee paid. Member then has 30 days to return the product and receive a credit for the selling price charged, less a $1.25 restocking fee."
which in effect actually means that if you don't return it within a week they charge you a "restocking fee" i.e. a late fee...
so much for life after late fees.

To the grocery store!

World News Tonight with Peter Jennings

2005-08-09T19:21:00.000-04:00

Peter Jennings died yesterday. Lung cancer. All the smoking did him in. I can't believe he's dead! I couldn't believe that he was retiring in April and now he's dead its just like wow. It's weird... like it was just such a normal thing to see Peter Jennings on TV giving the nightly news. My parents used to watch it sometimes. I know I didn't even know him or like his show or anything but he was just such a fixture! World News Tonight with Peter Jennings! G/d I just can't believe he's dead. It's like the floor's been yanked out from under me while I was still standing on it. Change is weird. Especially change that involves such normal things as Nightly News. Which aren't supposed to change.

Another really hum-drum day today. Just chilled around the house with Norah. Yesterday was quite exciting however. I hadn't planned to do anything but then my friend Amy called and was like "wanna go see Charlie and the Chocolatte Factory with me?" and I was like "hey sure!" So I called my mom and asked permission and Amy's dad was totally cool about picking me up at my house (which was really nice because its out of their way to the movies) and Norah tagged along and it was just really exciting just doing something different than what was planned. I love being spontaneous! Horay for spontaneousismness lol. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was not so exciting the second time though. Oh well. I got to see Amy which was cool because I hadn't seen her since she went to camp and won't again until she comes back from traipsing around the upper eastern part of the United States a few days before school starts.

My Grandma is coming to visit tomorrow. My mom and I are going to pick her up at the airport while Norah has fun at a friends house. That should be interesting... She's going to drive down to South Carolina with us which makes for a cramped car but its not so bad.

The TV keeps spouting news about remembering Peter Jennings.

Man I still can't believe he's dead! World News Tonight with Peter Jennings!!

it's like riding a bike

2005-08-07T17:21:00.000-04:00

It's funny how your body always remembers how to rside a bike. No matter how long it's been since you've hopped on and ridden away you just automatically know how to balance yourself and move. It's not like walking where if you lay inbed for 6 weeks and don't get up at all your legs forget and need to be retaught and retoned. I hadn't ridden my bike since last summer but today **in honor of the new bike I got for my birthday (my sister Norah grew out of her old one but wasn't quite ready for an adult size bike so my parent's gave her the bike I got for my birthday last year and got me a new one)** we went for a 'family bike ride' on the American Tobacco Trail. Which is quite long and hot and mostly flat. We rode like 6 1/2 miles which is nothing compared to Lance Armstrong and his 22 mile hikes uphill but enough for me. Especially since I hadn't been on a bike since last summer. But at the end I was so SWEATY and GROSS. I got home, changed out of my grungy disgusting clothes and showered right away. Because I hate feeling all nasty and dirty. dirrrty gurl lol. My mom was also really nice and bought us all milkshakes to share at the end. Because after all, whats the point of bike riding without a milkshake at the end to replace all those calories you just burned? Beats me.

Every summer we go to the beach in South Carolina... Kiawah Island. It's like this golf/tennis/beach resort place (but mostly golf, though the beach is quite nice tennis courts quite clay, and bike trails quite flat...). We always rent a condo and spend a week chilling at the beach (thats right... my family goes to a golf resort even though we don't play golf... whatever.)It's just so relaxed and nice. Last year we went with all my cousins but this year my golf-playing cousins decided to go to Hawaii instead so they could play golf there. My New York family will still be there though. We chilled with them at the beach last year... my little cousing is turning four in November and he is soooo cute! And of course my Grandma who drives down with us usually... she's coming on Wednesday and we're leaving on Saturday. It should be fun... I'm excited.

In Kiawah they have tons of bike trails and most are pretty shady and flat so if you leave early in the morning before the heat really sets in you can have a "nice ride" for two hours before going to crash at the beach for the rest of the day. The nicest (the means most expensive tea-room) golf course is called the Ocean Course and it's really pretty, right on the edge of the beach (but a private beach, not the one with people on it) so you can look at the water while you play and hit your ball into the sand. There's also bike trails that go to it and you have to go through all these residential neighborhoods before you get to it. It's quite a ride, at least an hour there and two and a half hours round trip (always tired-er on the way back so it takes longer...). We did it once last year but this year my parents have got this crazy idea in their heads to bike there everyday before hitting the beach. Ack. I need the excersize though... am so out of shape its not even funny.

I think I'm going to Paint the Earth babysitting camp tomorrow because my mom has a long day at her offfice because she's taking off all next week to go to the beach and the end of this week because my Grandma is coming. it shouldn't be so bad though... you get to paint ceramics and maybe I can convince Amy to tag along because she got home from camp on Saturday and isn't leaving for Vermont until Wednesday. School starts in two weeks... I am very excited!! My birthday is coming up right before that too... these last two weeks of summer should go by really fast.... I hope.

dumB survey

2005-08-05T10:24:00.000-04:00

i hate the world right now so i think i'll just post this nice survery that i got as a fwd yesterday for no one to see:
THINGS I HAVE DONE (not much looking back...)
(x) skipped school

( ) seen someone die

( ) been in love

( ) been dumped

( ) shoplifted

( ) been in a fist fight

( x ) snuck out of your parent's house

( x ) Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back

( ) gone on a blind date

( x ) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico

( x ) been on a plane

( x ) eaten Sushi

( ) been snowboarding

( ) been moshing at a concert

( X ) taken painkillers

( x ) love someone or miss someone right now

( x ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

( x ) made a snow angel

( x ) had a tea party

( x ) flown a kite

( x ) built a sand castle

( x ) gone puddle jumping

( x ) played dress up

( x ) jumped into a pile of leaves

( x ) gone sledding

( x ) cheated while playing a game

( x ) been lonely

( x ) fallen asleep at school

( x ) watched the sun set

( ) felt an earthquake

( x ) touched a snake

( x ) slept beneath the stars

( x ) been tickled

( ) been robbed

( x ) been misunderstood

( x) petted a reindeer/goat

( ) won a contest

( x ) had a parent run a red light

( ) been in a car accident

( x ) had braces

( x ) felt like an outcast

( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night - Does like, half count?

(x ) had deja vu

( x ) hated yourself and the way you look

( x ) witnessed a crime

( x) squished barefoot through the mud

( x ) been lost

( x ) been to the opposite side of the country

( x ) swam in the ocean

( ) played cops and robbers

( X ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers

( ) sung karaoke

( ) paid for a meal with only coins

( x) made prank phone calls

( x ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of you

( x ) caught a snowflake on your tongue

( x ) danced in the rain

( ) written a letter to Santa Claus

( ) been kissed under a mistletoe

( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about

( x ) blown bubbles

( ) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party

( x ) gone rollerskating

( ) had a wish come true

( x ) worn pearls

( ) ate dog/cat food

( X ) sang in the shower

( ) have a little black dress

(x ) had a dream that you married someone

( ) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole

( ) kissed a fish

( ) been a cheerleader

( ) sat on a roof top

( x ) screamed at the top of your lungs

( ) done a one handed cart-wheel

( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours

( X ) stayed up all night

( x ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree

( x ) climbed a tree

( ) had a tree house

( x ) are scared to watch scary movies alone

( ) believe in ghosts

( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes

( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say

( ) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on

( ) broken a bone

( x ) been easily amused

( ) caught a fish then ate it

( ) caught a butterfly

( x ) laughed so hard you cried

( x ) cried so hard you laughed

( ) cheated on a test

( ) have a Britanty Spears CD

( x ) forgotten someone's name

( ) French braided someone's hair

( ) been to any other countries besides yours

( ) had serious surgery

( ) gone out in public in your pajamas

( ) kissed a stranger

( x ) hugged a stranger

( ) been arrested

( x ) had alcohol

( x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator

( ) swore at your parents

( ) kicked a guy where it hurts

( ) been in love

( ) been close to love

( x) been to a casino

( ) skinny-dipped

( x ) saw a therapist/counsellor

( ) done the splits

( x ) played spin the bottle

( ) gotten stitches

( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour

( x) bitten someone

( x ) been to Niagara Falls

( ) gotten the chicken pox

( ) crashed into a friend's car

( x ) ridden in a taxi

( ) been fired

( x ) lied to a friend

( ) had a crush on a teacher

( x ) celebrated mardi gras

( ) been to Europe

( ) Been to Africa

( x ) Driven interstate

( x ) Been Skiing

( ) Met someone in person from the internet

( ) been to a motor cross show

( ) lost a child

( x ) had a crush on someone you shouldn't

( x ) own an ipod

( ) own an mp3 player

( ) fancy someone on your contact list

( ) kissed a girl

( ) kissed a boy

( ) fainted

( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire

( )questioned your heart

( x ) been obsessed with post-it notes

( x ) cried yourself to sleep

( x ) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

( ) jumped off a bridge

( ) kissed a mirror

( ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger

vain vain vain

2005-08-04T18:19:00.000-04:00

Another pretty boting day... I am a terribly vain person. My bangs pop out at me everywhere. I was watching dawsons creek today and on comes the dell commerical... the one with the preppy pink girl and comes into her college dorm and her roomie is this punk-y goth girl with dyed black hair and overdone eyeliner. and the preppy girl puts her pink clothes on their pink hangars next to the black ones already hanging and the heart-embossed picture of her harvard-grad boyfriend next to the punk rocker one of the other girl's bf. and then they sit down at the desk and open up the same dell laptop? you know the one. well the goth girls bangs are the same length as mine. maybe a little shorter. and the blonde girl on dawsons creek who i can never remember her name but she sleeps around a lot? well her bangs are the same length. i wonder if it was like a trend in the 90's or something. I don't know anyone who would get their hair cut like that on purpose but the show is kind of old... I guess that's why it's on at 10:00 am on weekdays lol. Gee that was a terribly shallowly vain paragraph... I'm such a freak.

I think I'm going to dye my hair. I know I was supposed to streak it purple at the beginning of the summer but the only purple dye was permanent... as in totally permanent dye your hair to it's natural hum-drum brown color and I freaked out and didn't do it. But I got my new teenpeople magazine today and they had an ad for this L'Oreal mousse dye stuff and there is one color that is slightly redish-purple-y and it washes out in 8-10 shampoos. Looks kind of cool. Maybe I'll try it. Gotta see how expensive it is first though because I am not blowing more than $15 on a hair dye that washes our in 8-10 shampoos (aka 9 days or less if its extra sweaty outside or the ac breaks...) especially not when the birthday money river is running a bit dry. because my birthday is COMING UP VERY SOON!! like 2 weeks. and with it the beginning of school. exciting exciting!

I was watching my favorite daytime talkshow lady today with my mumsie after she got home from work and today Oprah was interviewing this guy who started out Jim and became Jenny. And I just spent the rest of the hour being really thankful that I was not a transexual and felt at home in my own body (even though sometimes I don't but I never ever want to be a boy or anything). Not that there is anything wrong with people who do want to change their sex. I'm just pretty thankful I'm not one of them. Because I think it would be terribly uncomfortable to be in the wrong body. Euch.

george the idiot haircutter guy

2005-08-03T09:02:00.000-04:00

cut my bangs way too short!!! and not the regular "oh gee i just got my bangs cut and they look weird" gripes...they don't even graze my eyebrows!! i guess he's not to blame because i didn't tell him what i wanted done because i though he would recognize me (he's trimmed them right twice before) but he didn't and now i'm stuck with this g-d awful haircut that just make me wanna stick my head in a bag and never look out again. oh well... at least it will grow out by the time school starts to be normal looking. it's not like i'm doing anything between then and now anyway besides hanging at home and going to the beach (don't know anyone there lol).

my friend amy is coming home from camp on saturday so i'll finally have someone to talk to again and maybe have less time to feel sorry for myself and update this blog which no one is reading. then my other friend barbara gets home on sunday (i think) and ruthie sometime the weekend after that. everyone is trickling back home as the summer draws to a close. YAY. not like my summer totally sucked (which it kind of did but whatever) it just didn't turn out exactly as i had planned. i'm all ready for school to start though. i need to be busy again.

my dad came home early today so he could take me and norah to the pool as we are bored out of our minds chilling at home. but of course the second after we got there and i had jumped into the pool it started thundering. and then as people began to evacute it began to rain. and so we waited it out for 45 minutes wondering if the storm would stop and then finally left. and when we were halfway home? it stopped raining. it didn't even rain at my house!! i feel bad for my dad... he didnt get to finish all his paperwork and so will probably have to go back to work after dinner. all for nothing.

i wish i had something exciting to report to the invisible folk currently reading this...

George the haircutter guy

2005-08-02T17:18:00.000-04:00

I went to the salon place today to get my hair cut by George the hair cutter guy. Just a bang trim. He didn't have time to do my whole head... my mom said that the salon people squeezed me in last minute. It's ok because I really needed them trimmed but I didn't even get a head wash which is always my favorite part. Though it's always a litttle weird when George cuts my hair because he is not the regular lady that I usually go to. Brandy will be on maternity leave until September. Which is also when my therapist comes back from maternity leave. w00t w00t.

Otherwise it was another painfully boring day. Chilled at home with Norah until my Mom came home and took me to the salon. Life is an endless cycle of watching bad tv, playing sims, and eating. Oh yeah, and drinking LOTS OF WATER. 10 glasses a day.

I tried to mail a letter to Amy at camp because she had written me a letter and I had not replied yet but the mailman had already come when I went to put it out in the mailbox. So I'll jkust have to wait until tomorrow to mail it because it always bothers my dad when you put mail in the mailbox and leave it there overnight. He thinks that it will get stolen. Why anyone would want to steal a gossipy girly letter written on hello kitty stationary is beyond me but whatever.

I can't wait to go to the beach in a few weeks. My Grandma is coming and she'll drive down to South Carolina with us and then we'll have a few days before my uncle, aunt, and cousin come get there from New York. Then after we get home it will be school shopping, and my birthday, and the beginning of HIGH SCHOOL all really quickly. I'm so excited. Ready for this bo-ring summer to be ov-er alread-y!

trouble blogs

2005-08-01T16:14:00.000-04:00

I was flipping through this week's People and came upon this article about dedicated bloggers (**like me** only with 100,000 hits a day... something I clearly do not get as no one really cares about my hum-drum life... I don't work for google or am the head of the beauty department of an exciting magazine like those featured in the article.) who got fired from their jobs for bitching about them online. I don't think I could get in trouble with school for dumping shit about them in the blog but it was still weird. Anyway so I decided to check it out... jolinenyc.blogspot.com and was totally inspired. Being a beauty-editor sounds like so much fun! That's totally what I want to do when I grow up. Before she was fired "Jolie" used to get all sorts of free products, tried them out, and wrote a column about it. Factor in all the other free purses, makeup, gift certificates, spa trips, and celebrity interviews popping through the office etc. and it sounds like the job-for-me. The only problem is that all of the magazines are in New York City and though I love to visit my uncle up there once or twice a year I don't think I could live there. It just smells too bad. Even though "Jolie" lost her job (she came clean to her boss about the blog when she gave 2 weeks notice because she was leaving the Ladies Home Journal (very blah...) for Seventeen (I think I would too...) but got fired instead and when the story got out Seventeen declined the job offer) she still came out pretty good with a book deal.

Saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory yesterday. It was pretty good except when they got into the whole thing about how Willy Wonka was really such a freak because of his horrible childhood (dad=dentist who burned candy). That was a little weird. The oompa-loompa songs were also a little dissapointing. The same Roald Dahl lyrics but without the catchy tune as featured in the old Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. What bugs me the most is that when I looked up the movie times on aim it said that it was playing at 1:25 so me, my dad, and Norah all rushed through lunch really fast so we could make the movie and when we got there and bought tickets and concessions and went in it was the middle and i was like "huh". Only Mike TV and Charlie were left on the tour. Norah checked the tickets and they were for 2:15! The lady in the box office didn't even bother to say anything when we got them that we were 45 minutes early. We ended up waiting in the lobby while the movie finished up which kind of sucked but there was nothing to do about it. It just made me mad that the movie people didn't even bother to update the website that people count on to get the correct times. Just like when my mom and I went to see a movie at the Chelsea that we had looked up online and they had the incorrect one playing on the site so we went to go see it and it was not the movie that had been advertised. At least the box office lady there was a bit nicer and offered to give us our money back (which we took because the movie that was playing was very dark and creepy and not the romantic-comedy that had been advertised.) grr.

Reality Show du jour on the boob-tube is the Hell's Kitchen series finale. Only 2 chef-guys left... Ralph and Micheal. It is the cream of the crop of tv on tongight because it combines cooking (even though its not on the food channel) and the host guy cussing and screaming at the contesters. Ew. Norah's changed the channel now to mtv... home the original reality show (I think). The Sweet 16 party show is coming back with a new season and so to celebrate the entire old season is on (w00t w00t not). It's the first one where the bratty girls have a double-sweet 16 party and one is currently shaving her legs in the kitchen sink in front of her entire family while trying to talk on the cell phone to her pal-ies. What a freak. Who shaves their legs in the kitchen sink?? Especially when you have a perfectly good tub upstairs...

shopping gamble

2005-07-30T16:51:00.000-04:00

Just came back from the mall. Mom drove me and Norah all the way out to Cary Town Center because they have a delia's and an Aeropostale there. I need new clothes for school as nothing fits anymore. Nothing fits in the store either. I hate it. I hate it when things don't fit but I guess it's cool. I got this really cute applique denim skirt from delia's which is very cool. I also tried on this realy cute boho skirt at American Eagle which was very cool but very expensive. $40 so Mom said No. We can wait till it goes on sale. But thats ok. Then we had Chick-fil-a for lunch. It's so fried and nasty but it was that or Burger King.

My parents are watching this dumb show on the boob tube about these gamblers losing all their money in Las Vegas. And yet they are still smiling (the dumb people in the show). I can't tell what the point of the show is... I hate casion's... smoky and disgusting drunk people walking around with beers and thinking they're going to win lots of money when really they are doing the equivalent of throwing it into the trash can.

I'm so bored. I think I'm going to visit Harris Teeter avec mon pere. Au revoir!

home again

2005-07-29T15:11:00.000-04:00

I don't know why I keep bother updating this blog when no one's reading it. Maybe I think that someone will get a wildhair up their butt and glance at it once in a while. Most likely not though. We picked Norah up today from camp in Asheville. Or shall I say Hendersonville aka hickville and home of the largest Walmart known to man. It's good to have her home but I still kind of feel bad that I missed all of camp. Whatever. I can't help it. The car ride was really long and boring... especially since Norah was watching Pride and Prejudice on my computer (which I brought along for me but watched half yesterday in the car on the way west and she wasn't caught up and I didn't want to rewatch the first half) and all I had to read was the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy which gets progressively weirder as I go on. Now we're just chilling. Norah's in the shower washing off 4 weeks worth of dirt and Dad is reading the new Harry Potter book (which Norah also started in the car and happily closed it as we stopped for lunch "I'm on page 10!"). Mom is messing around on the internet. Or as much messing around as an adult can do on the internet without playing dumb games or searching random things on google. This means she is looking at airline tickets even though we have not planned another trip until we go to Kiawah in a couple weeks. Apparently they are having a sale. It would be really cool to go somewhere for a weekend. I haven't been home for a weekend in 2 weeks... first we went to New York City and then last weekend I was in Fort Lauderdale and now I just came back from Asheville even though it's Friday and doesn't really count. It was nice just getting away for a little while though. Anything is better than sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.

My hands are really sweaty from typing. My hands are always so sweaty it's really gross.

When we got to Bluestar and went to Norah's cabin to get her she wasn't there. Her stuff was all stacked neatly under her bed and her counsler was there and she was like "oh yeah, Norah went to say goodbye to one of the other girls with one of the other girls. she shoud be back in a second." and so while we waited Mom and Dad loaded the bags into the trunk and I went to the bathroom. Because I had a lot of cranberry juice to drink at breakfast and there is no bathroom between the hotel we stayed at and the camp. And I heard her come in to the cabin. I was washing my hands. and a second later she's suddenly in the bathroom giving me a hug and crying and touching my hair. And it made me feel really good. Like someone actually missed me. I missed her too but I didn't notice how much until we actually got her. It was just really quiet without her hanging around. Whatever.

shallow working loser

2005-07-28T09:05:00.000-04:00

I am so terribly out of shape. It's not even funny. I'm working again at my mom's office today and after I finished my lunch I ran downstairs to get my mom some cookies out of the vending machine (conveniently located on the basement floor when my mother works on the fourth floor that's really the second floor because the basement is first floor and all the numbers are messed up but whatever) and it took me like 10 minutes to get my breath back. I should join a health club like the Wellness Center at Meadowmont but I am way too lazy. Besides its not like I have any transportation or way to get there. There's a fitness club in Timberlyne too... right by my house. I think once school (and gym) starts back up again we'll do workouts everyday for like an hour and maybe I'll get some muscle tone. Maybe not. Weight-bearing exercises are good for me though.

I should really get back to work sorting video-tapes. I worked on it this morning and logged and finished all of the grade 6's but there are still grade 8's to start. I really don't feel like it though. I know I should help, there's no reason for me not to. After all, I'm here and there's work to be done and I'm just chilling, updating my blog and playing sims. on my computer. I told Susan (the lady my mom works with that I'm sorting videotapes and cd's for) I would get back to work after lunch but now I think I've decided I'm too lazy. There's something that comes with lunch that makes you slow down a little bit and not want to get back to whatever you were doing. Or at least that's how I always feel after I eat lunch.

I just finished this book yesterday... The Rise and Fall of a Tenth Grade Social Climber. It was kind of good but I stayed up really late reading it... like until 11:00 and I don't know why. It wasn't Harry Potter or anything and not even that good. No meaning. Not that Harry Potter really has any meaning either... it's just sort of comfort food. The girls in the book had such horrible values, or shall I say lack of them. They cut half their classes everyday and instead spent their time getting high and drinking various liquors in the bathroom and low-class Mexican bars. They were all supposed to be high-class girls too. Members of the uber-rich upper class of New York City. Their parents were all famous diplomats, lawyers, and a Martha Stewart look-a-like and yet they were still trashy. Even with the Armani sweaters etc. one of the girls shoplifted. Even though her parents were bazillionaires and she had enough to pay for it... And the dumbest part of the whole book? At the beginning the main character makes a bet with her ex-bff that she (the new girl) can make it into the cool girl clique by winter break and get invited on their beach-vacation or whatever. And then she spends the entire book accomplishing this feat while keeping a journal that she is constantly making nasty comments about these girls in. Then when she pisses the ex-bff off he gets a hold of the journal and posts it online where the cool girls all see it and immediately turn on her. Then ex-bff feels bad and has the new girl (not so new anymore) post an apology letter on the same site so she can get all her friends back. And so she does and they invite her on the trip. Talk about shallow. Low morals can we aim lower? Sometimes I wonder how these type of books get published. For girls like me I guess. Who read them and wonder as they are reading them why they picked it up in the first place. And also for the shallow girls that like to read those books and set the characters as their role models yada yada. Only those girls don't read books. They just go out and do the same things that the girls in the book do. Without any prompts. But obviously it's still important enough for me to write half a page about it. Or I'm pathetically bored eough to write and entire half page about it... Your cup can be half full or half empty...

Ew. I just came back from the bathroom (because I drank an entire bottle of water at lunch and therefore insured that I would be visiting the cubicle periodically for the rest of the afternoon) and in the toilet someone had left their bloody tampon and it was all puffed up and swollen from being left in the bowl for so long. Why can't people just flush their waste? No one wants to see it and it isn't that hard to just press the lever with your foot or hand or muscle of choice. whatever. I always feel really guilty and disgusting when I leave the stall without flushing... which I never do unless the flush is broken and the pot won't flush. But even then what else can you do? Scoop it out with your hand. No. Simply close the door beind you and wish that you had picked a different stall. Also commit the broken toilet to memory because if you are me and drink 10 glasses of water a day chances are that you will be back within the hour and you wouldn't want to make the same mistake twice. Not that you could because you would know as the waste is still in there from the last time you used it. Wow that was way too much detail right there. Whatever. I'm a loser... get over it.

hot hot hot

2005-07-27T18:06:00.000-04:00

another hot day in north carolina. i think the high was at least 101 today but in some areas it feels like 112 because of the humidity. it's horrible. like being a rotisserie chicken every time you step outside. thank g-d for air conditioning!! i spent the day at my moms work again. it's kind of boring but today we ordered in the loop for lunch which was fabulous even though i had the loop for dinner last night too. the loop is always so good. the fries there are yummy and hot and they melt in your mouth. yummy! now my mom and i are just waiting for my dad to get home so we can eat dinner which is done. roast chicken and portabello mushroom risotto.

mom is watching the boob-tube while i blog (i can now multi-task and blog and watch at the same time thanks to the new wireless internet inmy house lol. just what i need another reason not to get up and move). hgtv some terribly boring show about people redoing their bathroom or living room or porch or whatever. i hate this show but its ok because im not watching. but obviously i am because i just narrated it. she was watching rachel ray before on the food channel. her show is called 30 minute meals and she makes an entire meal in 30 minutes (obviously hence the name!). i just like her because she makes all the food on the show... doesn't make 1 cake and pull a preprepared one out of the oven. i think today she was making portabello mushroom steaks which was pretty nasty i think. why not just eat a steak? i guess for vegatarians but the only kind of mushrooms i really like are the ones that come in chicken marsala ;-).

i can't beleive that it's already time to pick up norah from camp. we're driving to asheville tomorrow night to get her and picking her up friday morning. the four weeks she was gone went by so fast. its going to be kind of weird when she gets home... talking about camp all the time. but i can't blame her i mean that's all she's experienced for 4 weeks. i just hope she didn't pick up any nasty habits from her cabinmates. like saying a really annoying word all the time. or turned into a jap (i.e. jewish american princess for the camp-vocabularily challenged). which she already was... but a low class jap. me too. maybe she'll come back all obsessed with juicy. but probably not. i just don't know what to expect its so weird. i do know this. she'll want wendy's on the way back from camp (its a tradition... camp food sucks and those french fries taste so good... you're going home, you've got a hot shower coming and some real food lol. at least thats how i always feel when i come home from camp...) and chinese for dinner. which she's unlikely to get due to my current situation. perhaps mom will get her to settle for oiishi's instead... its just as good and probably healthier because they cook everything all the way and don't use any cat meat. also they have the BEST shrimp dumplings there. they are ust so good!

dad should be home really soon. i gotta go help put dinner on the table. ttfn. to the nonexistent people reading this that is...

travels from florida

2005-07-26T15:00:00.000-04:00

so yesterday's flight was luckily uneventful. the plane even left the airport on time which was a definate plus because i thought it would be delayed due to weather, an afternoon thunderstorm is nearly always brewing here or in florida. i had expected it to be very hot down in fort lauderdale and it was but it was actually cooler there then it is here. low 90's verus today it was supposed to be 101 and feel like 112. it was in the newspaper and on the radio that one is supposed to avoid being outside in this heat. even the constructuon men building houses in my neighborhood had to stop. i guess they've had the past few days off because i haven't heard anybanging from over there.

florida was really weird. it put me in such a morbid mood. we went to visit my g.g. who is 98 and very old. she just moved into an assisted living facility and is having a tough time adjusting. everyone there is just waiting to die it is one of the most depressing places. almost like the blood cancer ward at the hospital. though those kids haven't just given up and are waiting to die like these people that ward is always a sad place to visit. anyway so the home is just very old people who are all just waiting to die. it made me really depressed the whole time. there was a lady having her birthday party while we were there. she was turning 101. i don't think i want to make it to 101. i don't think i will... not many people do but maybe by the time i'm that old there will be all sorts of treatments to make you live longer. so that was that. we saw my aunt and uncle from california while we were there too... they met us. also my great-aunt and great-uncle who live in fort laudderdale. we did dinner with them on saturday and sunday. saturday we went to this great fish place and i had scallops (i love scallops!!!) and then on sunday we went to the outback which is always pretty good (steak and mashed potatoes lol).

now i'm hanging out at mom's work chilling and working for service learning hours and pizza. i organized and dated all these cd's... there was like 10 boxes of them. that was very tedious but i got a yummy chanello's pizza for lunch and 3 service hours to go on my highschool transcript. i don't know how some of the interns in my mom's office do it. it must be horrible just organizizng and filing and labeling all day 5 days a week for 3 months. i think i would die.

later have an orthodontist appointment. i didn't wear my headgear and so she is going to wire my jaw shut (probably) and it will suck. i don't even want to know. like the mother in finding neverland... i'll take their drugs and put on the anesthesia mask but i don't think i want to know what metal objects they're wiring inside my mouth. i hope it won't set the metal detectors off at the airport. that would be horrible. but i guess the brackets didn't last weekend so maybe the wire won't either. my poor mouth. my poor poor mouth. but at least she doesn't have to worry about me sneaking popcorn anymore. that is on the no-no high fiber list. i have been banned by dr. kim to ever touch it again. in modeation.

hmm... there was supposed to be a thank-you party today sometime at my mom's work with cake and ice cream but it is 3:14 and i see nothing. oh well maybe tomorrow. i'm sure i'll be back. unless mom manages to take tomorrow off and then i'm supposed to go school shopping in cary. oggi girl is having a sale and delia's too. we were supposed to go on thursday but the kid she was working with didn't show today and he wants to come on thursday when his cousins leave which is fine. going in search of the goodies...

another day drags on

2005-07-22T09:01:00.000-04:00

yes here it is... my last day of cfs camp and instead of making the best possible use of the tools at hand i am updating my blog which i can do at any old time. listening to blink-182 on mon ipod. i love this album. take off your pants and shirt. i've been trying to listen to other stuff all week but when it comes down to it i just love it. it is definately the best.

i was reading the new harry potter book last night. i got to exactly the middle... chapter 15. i'm such a geek when it comes to harry potter. i don't even know why i like it. it's such an easy read and you wait so long for it (2 years to be exact...) and then you read it and you're like hmm and then a week later you're done and waiting for the next one. i guess its more of a comfort thing than of anything else. i don't know. i really disliked the fifth book... it was like harry potter was looking to be special but now in the middle of #6 there are constant referals to arguments and things that happened in the fifth book which i don't remember. i mean it was 2 summers ago that i read it. i'll have to go back and skim through it. at least #6 doesn't have the beginning story chapter like all the others. that gets a little old. my mom says that the books should come with like a bookmark timeline to remind you of all the previous things that happened but you don't have to read it if you don't want to. this is probably a good idea because when you skip that first reiterating chapter in the book you are also likely to miss something j.k. rowling slips in there that will become important later... at the "oh moment" when it all comes together in the second to last chapter including a lengthy chat between dumbledore and harry. that's another thing about the harry potter books that bugs me... they all follow the same format! it's annoying but proves the comfort thing... you know what to expect. grr... the last thing that's annoying about #6 (and also a little bit in #5) is that j.k. rowling tries to develop relationships between the characters. why does she need to add in that hermione asks ron to the yuletide dinner or whatever? or that harry feels a frisson when watching ginny. it's turning the book into a twisted triangle of love and if i wanted to read about that i would (and i do read that crap half the time). she should definately stick to talking about harry potter because twisted triangles of love are not her strong point. though i still think it would be pretty funny if hermione started sleeping around and got pregnant with one twin harry's and the other ron's. like on passions (a soap opera that norah and i like to watch in the summer for those that actually have something better to do then sit around and watch passions and dawson's creek and other crud like that) when ethan had an affair with theresa and she was pregnant with his baby and also his and gwen's baby due to some mixup at the hospital. then when one baby died they fought over the other one and it was funny.

blink-182 is finished. now i'm listening to simple plan. no pads, no helmets, just balls. another old album but new to me... i just got it in new york city.

i guess the attacks yesterday in london were only attempts and not fufilled. thats good. i think 1 person injured? i don't know. the authorities are still not letting a lot of details out and keeping the whole thing hush hush. it makes me really sad that people think they need to resort to bombings and violence to get the message across. what makes me even sadder is that it sort of works. i mean. i don't know what i mean. it's hard to explain.

leaving for florida tomorrow so the nonexoistent people reading this shouldn't expect another entry until monday or tuesday... whenever we end up getting back because i'm not too optimistic about the weather. we have an afternoon flight home on monday and afternoon t-storms down here (and there) are an often occurance. i expect an afternoon of waiting around in the airport and an early morning flight back tuesday. i don't know. at least i'll have my harry potter book to read (and reread if it gets that bad i gues) and the fort lauderdale airport has lots of stores and frappes and stuff. or it should. don't all airports?

a second set of ramblings from cfs camp

2005-07-21T08:54:00.000-04:00

here again today... early morning waiting for this web design camp to start. listening to my ipod. i downloaded coldplay onto it last night. i really like them. they're like a mellow blink-182. maybe i'll get their new album along with the simple plan one later because my mom said she might take me. if she's not too tired. i don't know after camp i get home and i'm like now what? let's do something! yesterday she took me to northgate to go shopping at aeropostale. i got some really cute fall clothes. a khaki skirt, tan bermuda boy shorts, a brown boho skirt, and these 2 really cute sweaters. i can't wait until its cold enough to wear them lol. i also got a pink tanktop at old navy to go with the brown boho skirt. i hate old navy. nothing in the girls section is very cute... all glitter and plastic pictures. i don't fit into the women's though like everyone else. even amy can squeeze into an xxs. not me. hayley the eternal size 12. though i suppose thats better than being an eternal size 12+. i should be a 14 this summer but am not. turning 14. my birthday is in a little over a month. ditto school because that starts up the day after. should be fun. not.

yesterday afternoon i had the worst headache. it was horrible. i took a tylenol because even though ibuprofen/advil is better i'm not allowed to take it anymore because of my stomach. so the tylenol was like expired because no one uses tylenol in my house so we don't buy any and it was just really bad. i hope i don't get another one today because i also had the same type of headache when i was in new york but i thought it was a sinus thing because of all the bad smells and smoke in new york city. pick up some tylenol at the store along with the acne pads. very important acne pads before my face breaks out like a pizza. a steroid induced pizza.

this morning coming to camp my mom had npr on and i heard there was another bombing on the underground in london. that really sucks. exactly 2 weeks from the first one. and all the suicide bombers the last time turned out to be english guys... right? there weren't any details yet but i'm sure we'll be hearing about it later. and hearing about it and hearing about it. as we should because all the bombings should really stop. i remember 9/11 and the state of panic it put the country into. i also remember the bombings in madrid last summer. those were bad. all this bombing. can't we be mature adults and solve this issue with our words not your hands? use your words not your hands to solve problems. didn't we all learn this as small children? i know my parents preached it to me.

my parents still plan on going to fort lauderdale on saturday. my mom made reservations at the hotel and for a car and everything. the trip is going to be so weird. my 98 year old g.g. (great-grandmother) just moved into assissted living out of her appartment and so we're going to sort through her stuff (she couldn't take everything i guess) with my great-aunt and my uncle and aunt who are flying all the way out from california (they're staying less time then we are though its really weird. they're coming on sunday morning and leaving the same time monday afternoon as us. all the way out from california for an overnight??). we're not even going to be down there for very long, barely 48 hours. i'm not even supposed to be there. should be at camp but whatever. i'm not. it will just be weird. really weird. at least there's lots of yummy food in florida. so much seafood. muscles, clams, scallops, shrimp, she-crab soup, snow crab, lobster. everything! omg i love seafood!

maybe it was a bad idea to listen to the entire coldplay album. it's making me feel very mellow and relaxy and also bored and angry. and frustrated that i have to fix the dumb flash movie because i only have 2 days left with all the stuff and equipment here and who knows the next time i'll have an oppurtunity like this and i'm wasting it and feeling the pressure and i hate it. it's all coldplays fault. time to switch music but i don't really feel like listening to anything else. in fact i think i'll just stop writing this because no one's reading it anyway...

ipod

2005-07-20T09:09:00.000-04:00

i've just discovered my ipod. i mean i've had it since last september but just last week i've really discovered it. just that in new york city everywhere you go you see people walking around with their ipods and mp3 players and stuff. on the subway, the street, the grocery store, starbucks, the park, jogging, biking, roller blading... anywhere! and i thought well if they can why can't i? why not? i mean i have it... so i did. everyday this week i've brought it with me to cfs camp and listened to it during odd moments. walking to the computer lab in the morning when i first get here, during snack, lunch, and waiting for my mom to pick me up in the sweaty afternoons. in fact i've got it on right now. dixie chicks but a second ago it was yellowcard and before that blink-182 because it's on shuffle. 223 songs and i've been listening for 30 minutes and have only made it through 7 of them. oh it's changed... dave matthews band. my dad likes to listen to them. i have kind of weird taste in music. i don't think i have anything new new on here... mostly songs and hits from 2002-2004. whatever. not like it matters. i do want to get the new simple plan album though. and the black eyed peas. maybe dad will take me to barnes and nobles today after camp.

last night there was a really violent storm while i was trying to sleep. it seemed to go on forever. the lightning was so bright it lit up my whole room every few minutes and the thunder was like BOOM BOOM BOOM. it stayed over my house for a looong time. i love thunderstorms in the summer. i just love feeling safe inside while the storm rages outside. i felt so cozy last night in my bed. i hugged the pillow and the sheet and listened to the thunder and was just like enjoyinh it i guess. in my old house we had a screened-in porch outside connected to the deck and i liked to go out there during the thunderstorms. especially when it was raining really hard and just like pouring buckets down from the sky. the water torrent down the roof in like a sheet off of the gutter and it would form this veil thing around the room. our backyard was sort of a hill so the porch and deck were like way high off the ground. there was a flight of stairs that lead from the deck to the ground and so when you were on the porch you were way high up. level with the middle part of the trees and the birds. the trees would sway in the wind and the lightning would crack and it was so pretty. i have a screened-in porch in my new house too but it's not way high off the ground like the other one, and it leaks so the effect is just not the same. i think that's the only thing i miss about my old house. the screened-in porch thunderstorm experience.

admist all this thundering last night a had 2 really really weird dreams. first i dreamed that i was in the car with mom and we were in a parking garage waiting to pull into a spot and rachel bilson and adam brody from the o.c. were driving by in this beat up old blue car and i was looking at them. this creepy guy was chasing them and trying to get their autogrpahs or something. then we were waiting at the elevator and suddenly mom and i were all alone and we were stuck in this parking garage place but with rachel bilson and adam brody. and i got their autograph which was weird because i would probably not ask if i saw them on a street and it was really weird. then my second dream was equally as strange. i dreamed that it was marit's birthday and i went to her house to deliver her birthday present from last year that i never ended up giving her (on moms suggestion) and it was in a brown harris teeter bag and i just wanted to put it in the mailbaox but we got to her house and they were having a party and so mom wanted to go in and i was like fine but only for a second. there was this big cake with a 4 on it outside in the front yard and the theme of the party was like fourth of july/america/USA pride. which was weird because her birthday is not july 4 it is july 29(though i think her brothers birthday is... don't ask my why i even know her birthday i just remember everybody's birthday) and we went inside and her house had been replaced by like this store thing and you could pick out little trinkets and make a hat. and mom wanted to make one and i was like no lets leave im not even friends with her anymore! and then my mom was like well ok but be sure to tell her mom thank you for having this nice party and i was like "well i kind of wasn't invited int he first place" but she made me do it and then we left or i woke up. all in all it was a strange night for dreams. weird lightning induced dreams...

i feel really bad that i'm at this camp with all the equipment to make flash movies and i'm writing emails to norah and updating my blog. i'd love to make another movie but it's kind of frustrating when you can't get it to look totally perfect or exactly the way i want it to. also i have no more ideas. something about meatballs maybe? i don't even know. it's so boring and slow absolutely nothing is happening. bored. bored. bored. lets see what i can come up with and be productive...

new york city

2005-07-19T09:31:00.000-04:00

back from new york city two nights ago and being bored at this web design camp thing again (dont want to start working on my flash movie yet because i will later and then i'll just get frustrated from doing it too long). here are the highlights (not in order of best-of but in how early i thought of them)
1. waiting 6 hours in rdu on wednesday because the flight was delayed and delayed and delayed like 4 times because of inclement weather. and at first they were like well if we can get onto the plane in 20 minutes we should be ok but we couldnt move fast enough and so the flight ended up getting cancelled and so we left first thing thursday morning which wasn't so bad because we only had to wait in the morning for like 45 minutes and we got to my uncle's appartment at like 9:30 so we still had time to go to all the places.
2. the moma had the best chocolate croissant at the espresso bar. it was like buttery and yummy and then we went to the architechture and design exhibit and the pirasso and cezane traveling thing that was in. then we went to carnegie deli with my uncle jeff for lunch and they have such huge sandwiches there. no one ever finishes. you have to wonder what happens to all the leftovers. good pickings for the homeless guys out on the street? waste of food. then my aunt hannah who works at teenpeople gave us a tour even though she was on deadline for the next day and i got to raid the beauty closet and get free makeup and stuff which is always a plus. a cd too this time... simple plan but not the new one so maybe i'll pick that up at barnes and noble for the trip to florida on saturday. the black eyed peas album too because, why not. i still have like $100 to spend there a year after my bat mitzvah...
3. then on friday we saw the frick house which was a gorgeous house but i started feeling sick in the middle of looking at all the paintings and there were like these guys standing in all the rooms in fancy coats and when i tried to sit down they were like no. so it kind of ruined it for me but it was still such a pretty house. the ceilings and walls and furniture. so intricate and beautiful! there was also this cool courtyard in the middle of the house with like a pond. it was white marble and green plants and the burbling fountain, it was just gorgeous! then mom and i navigated the city and made our way down to soho which was pretty cool and there was this one cool indian shop and i almost bought a tunic but it was like $35 and i was going to feel horrible if i got it and it just sat in my drawer. pretty cute though. i wish we had stores like that in chapel hill but we don't.
4. while in chicago a few weeks ago i made the pleasant discovery of frappechinos and so everywhere you go in new york there's a starbucks or a dean and deluca on like every cornere. we didn't get any starbucks but had dean and deluca's mocha frappe's twice. they are so expensive though! like $4.50 for a large at rockerfeller center (we walked there too after visiting teenpeople) and at the gigantic dean and delucas in soho it was $5.00 which made mom pretty mad that it should be more expensive at one place and not the other. also at the dean and delucas in soho they ran out of ice and so the lady behind the counter was trying to take it out of the food which was GROSS but then they found some but they did it so fast and hurridily (we had been waiting) that it wasn't as good as the one at rockerfeller center. ah well.
5. finally on saturday we saw wicked in the theater district which was awesome. **my first broadway show** it was really good. i've been wanting to see it ever since i heard the soundtrack way back in sunday school carpool with mia (she's moved to illinois now). then i got hooked and read the book last summer and then this summer i got to see it!
6. after wicked walked around times square and went into the mtv store (where they film trl but they weren't filming because it was saturday and trl is in las vegas this summer anyway) and i got this really really cute messenger bag. then i went to buy it and the lady behind the counter said it was named for like lindsey lohan and when she came to trl for the launch she expected special treatment because "she's so great" and then the people outside were like so what... and she didnt get any. which is actually pretty funny.
6. the flight home was ok. we were only delayed about an hour or so which wasn't so bad i guess. you never know with the summer weather. dad said it thundered and rained really hard at home.
7. i hate the way it smells in new york. i just felt so dirty on the subway and like walking in the street after touching something in a store. dirty dirty dirty. i would get back to my uncles appartment and just like wash my hands for a few minutes because it was so disgusting. the smells too. getting off the airplane in rdu it smelled better already and i was just like yesssssssss!
8. didn't really do anything yesterday. went to camp. started a flash movie. got a letter from norah who reminded me once again to get her some makeup at teenpeople! i swear she doesnt care about anything else!
9. i dont have anything else to say and i think we're going out to break soon so i think i will stop. especially since no one is reading this because no one is home except for me!!!!

2005-07-12T09:25:00.000-04:00

waiting to start the web design class at cfs... so while i cannot think up anything else to put on my homepage and while other kids are playing games i will update my blog because i wont have anytime to do it later because i gotta pack for new york (yay leaving tomorrow!! excited excited) new york is going to be very fun. my aunt hannah is on a deadline so we (my mom and i) won't be able to visit her at teenpeople (usually a highlight... you get to see all the contest stuff [got my picture taken the last time with orlando bloom's costume from pirates of the caribbean... it was really heavy!] and meet the main editor and all of the sectional ones too... visit the beauty closet and also the music lady who gets to go to all the concerts and write about them. she gave me some cool cd's last time [mandy moore and something corporate even though i don't have it anymore because i gave it to renee]) but its cool. we're gonna go to soho and walk around and visit all the artsy stores so gotta bring my birks lol. also the art museum probably and we might go see wicked which would be very very cool. but the tickets are really expensive they're like $200 a person and it's kind of late to book them but i don't know. of course the maina attraction in nyc (aside from visiting with my family up there and my baby [guess he's not really a baby anymore because he's turning 4 in november but whatever] cousin who is sooo cute) is the FOOD! so many yummy things to eat. dim sum and zabars and fresh french pastries on sunday morning that are still hot from the bakery and those huge white and black cookies from one of those classic jewish bakeries on the lower east side and real new york bagels and huge pizza slices and yummy pasta. we always eat lots of takeout! every night. zabars too is like right down the street from their appartment... you can walk there. there was this cool israeli market a few blocks down too but one day they went to buy stuff and it was closed. isnt it weird how stuff can just close like that? like one day it was open and the next day it was closed. very weird. anyway you can tell im really really excited!!! a weird thing happened yesterday at this cfs camp. (still waiting for the last 2 kids to get here so we can start and go outside "settle in" [aka downtime...]) i was eating my lunch at the table very nicely minding my own buisness and there was this group of like rising seventh graders to my left and they were eating and chatting and stuff and one of them is like standing around the table and he pulls out his juicebox and begins to nurse it. so he comes over to me and takes his straw wrapper and dumps it in my lunchbox (??) whats up with that? didn't this kid have any social skills or manners? it was really weird and when i told amy about it she said he liked me (where does amy get this stuff) but then she hung up because she could not tear herself away from a friends rerun. its cool. it was still a weird thing for that kid to do though. did he expect me to throw it away for him? or maybe he though that since it kind of matched my straw wrapper i just wouldn't notice and throw it away for him. but we are at cfs and most of the kids at this camp (i think) go here during the year too so shouldn't he be all eco friendly and know about trash cans and stuff? i dont know w/e gg the class is starting.

nothing more to say

2005-07-09T14:05:00.000-04:00

wow... i haven't posted in like a week but thats ok because i know no one is reading this anyway. was a cit all week at the JCC camp which was ok i guess. the little kids are so cute. next week im taking a web design workshop at cfs so maybe i'll learn some neat-o trick to make my blog look extra cool lol. the people were so excited when i called to sign up. another girl in web design w00t whopee lol. also going to new york city next weekend to visit my aunt, uncle, and cousin who is turning 4 in november. very cute lol. i love visiting new york city. my aunt works at teenpeople so im going to go take a tour of her office which is always fun and includes goodies... free cd's and makeup. food is good there too. we always eat lotsa takeout while we're there. after that more camp then florida and then home to hang out and chill. everyone is going somewhere. rebecca's in seattle. barbara's at band camp. amy's leacing for grp next week. anna ruth is leaving for grand tour of north america tomorrow. norah's at camp. hayley is stuck here. only not because im going to florida and new york and then the beach but thats ok. i don't have anything else to say. going to a movie at the carolina theater later. also maybe picking up my puma's at the puma store **yay** because 2 pairs of sneakers are not enough for me. there is nothing more to say.

ouch

2005-07-02T13:31:00.000-04:00

i was opening a bottle of tums and i scratched my hand on the tinfoil. and its like this mambo cut on my poor palm and it hurts really bad so i cant type. ouchies!

bewitching the orthodontist

2005-06-30T12:45:00.000-04:00

bored bored bored. i hate summer its so long and boring and sucky without camp :'( i have another orthodontist appointment today which always promises to be fun. my old orthodontist moved to high point... furniture capital of the world (?) and so the new lady is like grr headgear or die. i chose die i think because hate the headgear. not only unattractive but uncomfortable as well. anyway so i have to have new xrays and impressions and stuff which also sucks. lets hope i dont barf or get radiation posioning this time... what else is new? might see a movie today. bewitched! avec amy. it looks sort of dumb but whatever im boooooored. sims2... (thats what we do while mummies at work... sit around on our bums, eat chocolate pudding, watch dawsons creek and play endless hours of sims2.) goodness gracious me i hate being bored...

loserville

2005-06-19T19:40:00.000-04:00

i know i already posted one today but that was this morning and as i am loser with nothing better today i think i'll leave another one. so my dad got this new program at his office where he needs internet access on his computer at home. this means that they have decided to get wireless internet for my house. heehee. so we've all been puttering around with it since it came home but couldn't get it to work until mom went and talked to the guy at the apple store but now it is working and i hooked up my computer and so now i can Blog in Bed. but i wouldnt do that because that would be weird. but anyway went to the pool today and the water was the prettiest color. aquamarine. but then a cloud covered the sun and it started to rain and so norah and i convinced dad to buy us some ice cream and leave lol. ice cream at the pool is just unavoidable. so good in its little plastic package after a swim. nothing much else going on. leaving for chicago in like 2 days yay. then camp the week after that. i cant think of anything else good to say so i will just stop now. yeah that sounds like a good idea before i make a complete and utter fool of myself...

fathers day!!!

2005-06-19T12:01:00.000-04:00

today is fathers day so my mother has asked my father to do some yardwork and take me and norah to the pool while she goes shopping for clothes which she needs for chicago because we're going on wednesday (yay excited yay!!) at least we get some good bbq or pizza or whatever for dinner. and a chocotaco at the pool. yummy yummy. and because it is fathers day we had bacon for breakfast. turkey bacon but bacon still. salty crunchy yummy. yesterday i was so bored that i made a dumb quiz. voila:
who said it?

1.___ when asked by a british child what the white house was like he responded with a tactful "it's white"

2.___ "smoking kills. if you're killed you've lost a very important part of your life'

3.___ "whenever i watch tv and see those poor starving kids all over the world i cant help but cry. i mean, i'd love to be skinny like that but not with all those flies and death and stuff"

4.___ "i made a pact with myself that i wasnt going to hook up with anyone. so, right not, im not going to date anyone. i'm not going to kiss anyone. nothing."

5.___ "dumb is just not knowins. ditzy is having the courage to ask! dizty is not editing yourself."

6.___ "i have opinions of my own, strong opinions, but i don't always agree with them"

WORD BANK **may use names more than once**
a) paris hilton
b) george bush
c) jessica simpson
d) brooke shields
e) mariah cary

ok did you guess?? here are the answers:
1. b
2. d
3. e
4. a
5. c
6. b

hee hee funny funny celebrities are such idiots why do we idoize them so and pay them billions of millions of dollars each year for doing what... being an idiot? being rich? dunno. dont care. lets eat some chocolate pudding.

summer

2005-06-17T14:47:00.000-04:00

i haven't written in a while. it is because it is summer and my time is filled with orange/lime flavored jello and daytime talkshows/soap operas/dawsons creek because mum is working in the mornings and so norah and i are stuck at home with the tv and the jello. and today i was messing around on the internet and sims2 came out for mac so now i can waste my money and buy that but i was realizing that i need a life. what kind of loser/freak sits around and looks up when sims2 comes out for mac? i cant beleive i just admitted that. what a loser am i. i had armadillo grill for lunch though and it was really good. i love the armadillo grill. and it was next to the birk store so we went in and got comfy sandals for camp and they feel really good. AND going to chicago next wednesday YAY im really excited its gonna be really fun and then we come back for five days and then off to camp. nothing else going on. i need something to do so i think i will go make pudding. i love chocolate pudding and it is fattening which is an extra plus. wheeee i feel like a loser!!!

dead bunnies

2005-06-05T20:46:00.000-04:00

my mom found some baby bunnie fur on the lawn. dad said the hawk got it. then they got mad at mommy bunnie for eating the new plants that my mom wanted (and got obviously) for mothers day. they were pretty but poor mommy bunnie needs some comfort foods after her beloved baby was eaten viciously by a predatory bird and its fur was scattered all over the lawn. on the other hand maybe it wasnt a so beloved baby as rabbits can get pregnant the day they give birth. ew.

doctor death

2005-06-01T19:14:00.000-04:00

wow i have seen like 3 doctors in the past 24 hours and my tummy hurts from being poked at for an hour and a half ultrasounds must die lol and so much gel was squirted onto my poor abdomen that they had to open a new squirty thing lol kind of funny actually... still not fun though i hope i feel better enough to go to camp because the first doctor said that i couldnt unless i gained 10 pounds but that might be changed now that i am not considered to have an eating disorder anymore because thats what she first thought and put me on the cookie diet (3 cookies a day; 2 bananas; 16 oz. cup of chocolate milk; cup of pistachios w/o shells) but now i cant eat any milk stuff (or thats what dad said....) and mommy is talking about joining a support group but the intestine thingy i have doesnt seem so bad to me... i mean of course i'd rather not but after seeing all of the really really sick kids in the blood ward today im just pretty happy not to be one of them... and if i follow the special diet and take iron supplements then i wont even have to have my bowels removed and a bag put in instead so looks ok to me i guess. just really glad not to be one of those sick kids visiting the blood doctor. there was this one optomistic girl and she started out doing hw but then left and came back into this like comfy waiting room place (waiting room inside the doctors office... it had lots of comfy-plastic rocking and arm chairs and stuff) all hooked up to this big machine-y thing and her mom was on the phone arranging an appointment for special treatment in pennsylvania and there was also this little boy eating chick-fil-a hooked up to a similar machine and a little hispanic toddler and also a girl on chemo hooked up to same machine and she had a kercheif on because she was balding and i just felt really really happy not to be diagnosed with one of those yucky cancer-terminal die diseases. so the intestine thing wont kill me... just cause pain and for that i guess im pretty glad...

practically brain dead

2005-05-31T17:48:00.000-04:00

today in health we were speeding up through our last drug unit so we can go into p.e. for the last week of school (boo) so after finishing the last 2 birth control presentations (a wonder bra that stops ovulation and a sponge that has spermicide in it) ms smith popped in this movie 'the truth about drugs' (we also watched 'the truth about sex' during the sex unit) and there was this kid who overdosed on some drug and he went into a coma and when he came out of the coma he was blind and deaf and immobile. he was in this nursing home place learning to walk and talk and function again and he was getting out of his wheelchair and ms smith says "practically brain dead" in her deep southern accent. needless to say pretty funny. went to the doctor today and i had 4 shots and bloodwork done and so my arms are pretty tired (from having harmful chemicals injected into them even id they covered it up with 2 pretty-sparkly band-aids...) so im not going to type anymore but instead will help my mommy make chicken ceasar salad for the girl scout potluck thing tonight.

faking sick, fist fights, & the second coming of a robotic jesus

2005-05-27T19:56:00.000-04:00

1. faking sick
caught a ride home with rebecca yesterday because my mom was with my sisters girl scout troop who was bowling for the afternoon. we were in the car and her brother abe (he's 7) was there too. rebecca was talking about school and he was like i didnt go to school today. turns out he faked sick (or was only like a little sick and faked be a lot sick... dont really know) and her dad bought it and took him to work with him! rebecca said that he was like "must play video games, only video games can save me" in the morning while he was sposed to be eating breakfast. i totally wish norah did cute stuff like that. i swear the two of us (or at least me...) have always been scared to like fake sick. the only time i've ever done it was once when like my ears were really bothering me and i had a head and stomach hurt and i had half a fever and the nurse was like wanna call ur mom and i could've stayed at school but i didnt but i was half sick so maybe that doesnt count? i only missed 2 periods and lunch so not so bad right? whatever. still thought it was cute
2. these boys in my math class had a fistfight. we were having a free day because of eogs and they were playing uno or something and someone got hit and their mother insulted i think and the next thing one kid was like pushing the other and then the pushed kid started like beating down on the pushers head like die die die. i think they got like 2 day iss or 2 day suspension but it was like the first time anyones ever had like a fight in class... i saw some funky seventh graders beating it out in the hall one time between classes but the principal was right there and she like pulled them apart. ms crocker was kinda pissed she was like " this has never happened in all my 5 years of teaching" which i guess is a pretty long time to teach but not like "i havent ever seen this with 50 years of experience." but she sent them right outside she was like "out out of my classroom right now" and they went straight to cougar pause. culbreth is supposed to have like a 0 tolerence policy for fights but obviously not cuz they didnt get expelled but w/e
3. the second coming of a robotic jesus
we're writing scifi stories in l.a. as like our final grade because ms hall doesnt wanna give us a final and we were talking about charactaristics of a scifi story. each group had to write down some and then share with the class. we were going around and my group was like "advanced technology" or something and other groups were like "time travel" and the last group was like joey and dylans group and i think to be funny (i think so) were like laser condoms (funny) and the second coming of jesus (think they meant this funny too but not sure... im just like paranoid about like people that try to convert others and stuff they were probly trying to be funny but you never know i dont know w/e) and ms hall was like "no boys, when one begins to talk about religous issues like the second coming of jesus it becomes theistic not science fiction" and they were like "but ms hall... what if jesus was a robot? what if it was the second coming of a robotic jesus, would it be a science fiction story then?" and i thought that was pretty funny hahahahaha only really not so poop a little amusing though...

psychopath & freedom of speech

2005-05-24T18:10:00.000-04:00

ms smith (my lovely health/p.e. teacher for the culbrethly challenged...) was in uber-psyco-bitch mode today. we were working on these dumb projects where you make up a form of birth control and have to spend a measly 4 million dollar budget and then present to the class. my group is doing a funky pill thing that increases acidity in vagina and kills all sperm but other groups are slightly more creative: includes cassie's group: bob boxers that heat up and kill all sperm. rebeccas group who is making a mitten to kill all sperm (? itchy??) and my favorite the anonymous sex-hat group (lol) anyway so we're not actually supposed to learn anything with this project because when rebecca asked ms smith if she could go to the library and see how long it takes for sperm to form so she could figure out how long one would need to wear the mitten before intercourse and the lovely "miz smifff" (she refers to herself that way because she lives in alternate dimension and thinks its cool which its not because she is a teacher and should know correct grammar lol) told her "baby this is your project, you dont need to look anything up baby you make it up make it up MAKE IT UP BABY" (waving motion rebecca to table with waiting group mates. whatever but today she was being extra-psyco-bitchy and she made this girl in my class cry because she was reading a book. ms smith made very clear that each group member did their part so after doing her part of writing the paper (i think maybe) she was letting the other group mates do their part of making and designing poster. ms smith got very angry and she got really upset. its ok though shes not weird because ms smith made me cry once too... i was talking to her about my grade and she was like you can bring it up to an a baby just try harder ok baby (repeat about 10 times and you'll feel bad too lol) and then she was like getting in on me about how "if anything is going on you know you could tell ms smith right baby, right" and i was like sure because nothing is going on (in her brain too lol...) then in l.a. we were talking about freedom of speech and turns out that there is a clause/loophold... minors dont have freedom of speech and first i was like grr but then i sat back and was like well doesnt really affect me because i dont like to wear bear hats or cigarette/pot tshirts so all is cool (but not for the funky boy who wrote the essay we were reading because he thought smoking was extra cool and so obviously smokes and has submitted himself to a life of trachiotomies and lung cancer and lets not forget emphysima but his choise his fault) stopping boring the reader (if any) right now because dinners done and my fingers are tired...

la la la l'eogs

2005-05-23T19:26:00.000-04:00

hee hee hee... the calculator active eog is tomorrow and i haven't studied but thats ok because the teachers say all you need is a good breakfast and a full nights rest. whatever but im not so stressed about the tests this year. we didnt even really review a lot in class... a week for math and a week and a half for l.a. and its the last year that i will ever have to take one (horay) and yet this fact is overshadowed by the fact that next year we'll be taking eoc's which are like a billion times harder. the algerbra eoc is 80 (maybe 70...)questions in 90 (or maybe 100...) minutes which is like one minute and a couple seconds for each problem which is long and wordy with an equation at the end. ms crocker said not even to read the problem... just find the numbers and dont even work it out just punch it into the calculator. she says that none of her students ever finish either. mason took it last year and he said he guessed the last 20 questions. one needs an 85 to pass but on the practice test ms crocker said she would be amazed if anyone scored an 80. needless to say many people scored below the mark as expected (by ms crocker) i am way scared of failing because that would be really bad because i would have to take it again and maybe go to summer school or back into algerbra again next year which would totally suck a lot to repeat a whole year of math. whatever just so long as i get a big breakfast (but not too big because then i will be sick) and a full nights rest (but not too full because if i were to get my full nights sleep i would sleep in untill 10 or 11 am and totally miss the test...) should be (fairly ok). going to eat raspberry sherbert now because it is really good lol...

so long and thanks for all the fish

2005-05-22T15:14:00.000-04:00

saw hitchhikers guide to the galaxy yesterday. it was ok but the best part was at the begining when the dolphins sing this lovely song **so long and thanks for all the fish** heehee that was funny. the movie could've totally done without the romance bit in the middle though. the scientists guys were like what is the meaning of life and arthur (aka main character) went on and on and on about love and finding "the one" and how it was the hardest question ever and he finally found the answer but blew it with his one true love (they end up together in the end though... surprise surprise). it was a scifi movie not a romance and so they shoukd've kept it scifi. i think im going to read the book for the scifi project though because it looks okay and the movie people always leave the good stuff out that was in the book lol. its funny... the popcorn at southpoint is fabulous and yet it comes out of a bag. at timberlyne i saw them pop the popcorn but it was really stale and nasty. my mom likes to go to timberlyne because its like onl a few minutes away but whatever. there were like no people in the theater because starwars came out on thursday. starwars totally confuses me. i saw the first one they ever made and i couldn't follow it at all. then saw the fourth one they made and i couldnt understand what the alien guys were saying. that is one thing that george lucas is really bad about... like how are you supposed to follow the long and twisted plot if you cant understand what leader of the big-ugly-green people is saying! yes or no, will he protect anakin skywalker and the queen or not? too confusing. another thing that bothers me about starwars is all the product placement they do. heres a few just off the top of my head: burger king toys, legos, pepsi commericals, pizza commercials, starwars trailers playing on the tv in best buy, i mean george lucas went so far as to go on the o.c.... its everywhere. but at least this is supposed to be the last in the series so mankind is safe from the boring everywhere ads (for now at least)

yummy lasagna

2005-05-21T11:50:00.000-04:00

last night i hd lasagna for dinner. it was really good because (as everyone likes to say) my mom makes the best lasagna except that yesterday i ate the noodles but not the nasty cheese off the top (i hate that part) but my sister did and so my parents were like you can't have another piece until you finish the cheese (i had all of this cheese in like a pile on the side of my plate) and my mom was like even norah ate more than you. and true to her words norahs pile was smaller and i was like grr and so they all finished and got up and left me sitting at the table all by myself picking at the disgusting cheese. it was nasty and by the time i ate it (i was really hungry) it was like cold and extra barfy. but anyway i've got this really funny story about lasagna. i went over to (my friend) amys house and we were having lasagna for dinner. amy always says that her mom makes the best lasagna ever and the recipe came from her grandmother bla bla bla. well so it was pretty good and i asked for the recipe and she emailed it to me. i was making amys lasagna with my mom and i was looking at the back of the lasagna noodle box and its recipe for lasagna was the same as amys (only without the meat)!! i thought it was pretty funny and then i was at school a couple days ago and talking to barbara and somehow we started talking about lasagna and i was like yeah its pretty good and she was like my mom makes the BEST lasagna and then jessica walked up and she was like no MY MOM MAKES THE BEST LASAGNA and so i told them the story about amys lasagna. MORAL: your mom doesnt make the best lasagna... lasagnas just really good. reminds me of these brownies. my mom found this really yummy brownie recipe and i always thought that she got it from like my grandma or something but i was telling her about the lasagna thing when we were making amy/the box's lasagna and she said that she got the recipe of the box of a chocolate chip box!! they changed the recipe though because now it's a different easier (but not as yummy) recipe. thats all for now. think im gonna go eat some lasagna because writing about it has made me hungry...

je t'entends mais je n'ecoute pas

2005-05-20T17:41:00.000-04:00

[i hear you but im not listening ;-)] was our pdj (phrase du jour aka dumb french phrase of the day but was actually pretty cool today... obviously i posted it DUH!!!) in french and it is extra cool (for the french teacher) because we are learning how to talk like this and make commands and stuff and order other people around but YAY because the year is almost over and this is like the last thing we are learning before finals (boo) and then DONE and on to HIGHSCHOOL (and FRENCH2) whoopee. it took this long to finish (finals are NEXT WEEK) because our lovely french teacher felt compelled to teach us around 50 extra past tenses of extra verbs that we didnt even know how to conjugate yet. whatever because we also waste half the class period whenever something exciting happens to mlle (madamoiselle for the frenchedly challanged [miss]). when she got engaged she told us about it and when her brother had a baby and when her other brother had a baby and when she picked out her wedding and bridesmaids dresses AND to top it off yesterday her dress (she calls it her "robe de marriage" to make it french enough lol) came into the shop and she was trying it on for the first time and getting it fitted and stuff. anyway well we all came into class today and (fearing a pop quiz she has been threatning all week) started asking about her dress and how it went and looked and stuff. apparently she had been getting this all day and refused to tell the class anything about the dress (and therefore wasted no time) she said that she knew she was being used and i was like... well even though no time will be wasted today and french is always pretty boring and the french teacher can get off on a venue and go kind of funny sometimes GO FRENCH TEACHER because its really good to realize your being used and stop it even if it means a pop quiz for me (she forgot so its all good)