Wednesday, February 07, 2007

procrastination

this is me procrastinating.

I've got three tests tomorrow and I feel like studying for not one of them!

excuse the complaining. if there's one thing (among many many more) that bothers me (at this particular moment in time) it is people who complain excessivle about homework and/or list every assignment they did or have to do. are you really quite that boring that you need to detail your homework life for me?

the truth is... yes.

or am I so boring that you have nothing else to say to me save the homework shit? lets hope not.

today in civics the teacher told the class to write four words on the board, two that describe the way you think of yourself, and two that cover how others perceive you. or how you THINK others perceive you. a great deal of difference.

I didn't write any words on the board. I might have managed fuck you in both places but he said no explicatives.

like I would actually do that.

I am just too bland in school.

The truth is,

I am much more complex than two words. can I even describe myself in many words? I am so many different me's.

do you know what really drove me crazy though? some my fellow (and rather stinky if I do say so myself) peers wrote things on the board that they wanted others to think about them. like didn't put too much thought into it. there were a lot of "loud"s, "nice"s, and a few "complicated" comments for those who wanted to be sure that those watching them write on the board didn't get the wrong idea about their not so simple life. not sure that I can convey what I mean entirely, let me delve further. the type of person who wants you to know that their life is complicated so you know that you don't have it as bad as them. twisted logic. why anyone would desire pity is beyond me. but of course, I am an anti-pity advocate. I cannot stand pity or sympathy most of the time. a major character flaw. not really.

a major character flaw would be my inability to open up in front of strangers.

and yet I am able to type out all of this on a blog that is up for everyone to see and yet no one will see it?

it's true. no one is going to actually read this post.

I dare whoever reads this post to write a comment stating that they read it.

double dog dare!

I read about that in the sarah dessen trash that I was reading today.

seriously... does it get any worse than that? double dog dare? sarah dessen at least appeared to have the same opinion. but seriously, sometimes I wonder about those books.

I think that I'm almost done.

I think that it's a bit strange that everytime I go to finish a post I say that.

tough shit.

for me.

time to study.

I can avoid the inevitable no longer.

adopt your own virtual pet!