the bright side of ugly

today I went geocashing at university lake.

we went canoeing to find the geocash and it was
cold
wet
rainy


aboslutely gorgeous

the leaves are so pretty right now, especially there. they were in full swing, orange, red, brown, a few slow greens. all framing the lake and reflecting in the black glassy water.

breathtaking.

Posted by hayley at Friday, October 27, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

in the two days after I finished ranting about jacob black I had two dreams. each were about a character a jacob black but not jacob black. needless to say, after being haunted by our favorite native american werewof, I became rather tired of his character. tragic yes but not meant to be obsessed over. the day after I had the second dream I spent all day thinking about what I would post when I got the chance. that was thursday and by the time I got home from school and done with my flute lesson and finished with dinner it seemed sort of stupid. I lost momentum and (quite obviously) never made the post. which isn't such of a loss as it may seem, considering the fact that the two dreams I had were weird. very weird.

the first was about this teenage mother from the deep south (she spoke with a heavy southern twang) who's baby's father dumped her. she ended up with a jacob black but there was sort of hope at the end of the dream. like, even though she didn't end up with her "true love" (he was sort of an asshole anyway) there's still hope for happiness.

the second dream wasn't quite as clean cut and involved a certain freshman I sit next to in one of my classes. we were in a car and he was like jacob black but in this kid's body, only supersize. (does that make any sense?). it was bizarre hung over me all day.

that was when I decided that I was ready to be done with jacob black.


until the next book comes out at least ;)

Posted by hayley at Friday, October 27, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

ok
for some reason
I can't seem to shake this jacob black
he's hanging over my head
or my chest rather
I just feel like
I can't quite explain it

perhaps it's because
jacob black's don't show up in everyday life
and not all of us has a jacob black to fall back on when life gets particularly rough.
does anyone have a jacob black?

I think I could've ended up with jacob black in the end
if he was a foot shorter
and jewish


::sighs dramatically::



there is just too much to expect of a modern jacob black
but what else can one expect from his creator

the girl has to end up with the "true love" in the end
and not the comfortable jacob black

though how would I know?
I'm just a over-philosophical 15 year old who just wishes she had a jacob black to fall back on
I wouldn't take anything I say seriously
if I were you...

Posted by hayley at Tuesday, October 24, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

(after reading stephanie meyer's "New Moon" in which the "star-crossed lovers" bella and edward are seperated. edward runs away to south america [where he prompty curls up into fetal position and tries to comfort himself after ruthlessly breaking up with his "one true love") and leaves bella at home with her father and JACOB BLACK, our ill fated hero)


why is it that the best friend boy always gets his heart broken by the girl when her boyfriend comes back and professes his love? he's like that boy that everyone pretends isn't cute but really is and is so much better than boyfriend #1 (ok so maybe that came from the everwood rerun yesterday... I confess) and so what if the first boyfriend is a vampire who only left the girl because he thought he was doing it for her own good (saving her soul... original huh ::note sarcasm::). the second boy (JACOB BLACK) picked up the pieces when she was feeling lost and alone and just because he is a brand spankn' new werewolf and the other is a vampire (read sworn mortal [or rather immortal haha] enemy) doesn't mean that he should not get the girl. ok so maybe. but still... why can't jacob black ever win the girl once in a while. why can't he be the one who ends up with the girl at the end of the day. not that hooking up with the girl is that which defines our lonely hero, but it would be nice for the sweet steady guy to end up the happy one in the end. not that he won't end up happy if he doesn't get back (sort of) together with the girl.

EPIPHANY

jacob black should get a girl that he deserves as opposed to a broken one.

NEW CONCLUSION

please stephenie meyer! please please please give jacob black the happy ending he deserves.
in fact I think that jacob black may deserve a better ending... simply because he was forced to suffer through losing the girl he loves to his despicable (or so he beleives) enemy.
I mean
how could bella?
she went right back to edward after he left her and her broken heart on the ground in a cold, rainy forest for goodness sakes. and even if he did have a good reason and attempted suicide after he beleived she had died could she really take him back? is there not ALREADY enough damage and mistrust in that relationship?
could bella really take him back without question?
so easily?



needless to say, I like jacob black the best.

in fact...
I think I would pick jacob black over the vampire

ok
so I probably wouldn't


but still...




JACOB BLACK!

Posted by hayley at Tuesday, October 24, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

is my favorite place to be at school
especially in between classes
when it's not crowded with all of the stupid freshmen (**see disclaimer below**)
and it's quiet
and warm
and
when my ipod's on
I can close my eyes
and pretend
only just
that I'm
not
at
school

torture chamber
that
it
is




**one does not actually have to be a freshman in order to be a stupid freshman, it just sounds better than stupid sophmore or stupid junior... nothing against freshman**

Posted by hayley at Tuesday, October 10, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

my poor (poor in this context meaning yesss she's out!! movies for the rest of the week... but I do feel sort of bad that she's so sick that she's been out all week) french teacher has been sick since last thursday and last week we watched cyrano de bergerac (the best movie ever watched in the history of french class... ever. it's right up there with emma and pride and prejudice) today we watched 101 dalmatians in french (no subtitles, my view on that is xcmnvksdleu) and it's like a pantomime with french
stinky
anyway
so we had a NEW sub today
ms beak
beak like a bird has a beak.
that's what she said
she was just very
relaxy sarcastic
ten bucks that she is the lead singer in guitar subs band?

Posted by hayley at Thursday, October 05, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

was such a long day
insane
school
forensics
chem tutuor until 7
dinner
homework
america's next top model
procrastinate
do homework
but at the end
it wasn't as bad as I thought that it would be...


but do you know what happened yesterday during french?
so I posted about guitar sub man right?
well
new sub

this one was subbing french (duh)
and he was wearing a black shirt, black pants, black combat boot things, and black rectangle-y glasses.
He also had earrings and blonde spikey hair
and he read an art nouveau magazine throughout class (whilst I worked on my busy work book work)

and then
at the end
just as the bell rang
he pulled out
from under
the desk
a...
:::drumroll please:::

miniature guitar thing that's in between a full size guitar and a ukalaile but I'm not sure what the technical name is
whatever
the point is
that he pulled it out and started playing

made me smile

I guess subbing is a good day job though
get out at four
no committments
no working
just babysitting some nasty kids all day

but still
why is he a substitute teacher?


the newspaper should totally do a regular circular about substitute teachers in the area
their life stories
why they sub
what their real passion is

I would totally read that
if it was an intersting one
would you?

Posted by hayley at Thursday, October 05, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

of the wild ipod tour and still only one fourth of the way through with song 117
maybe I'm not a hardcore listener.
whatever
the point is that
I listened yesterday for two and a half hours
and at the beginning of that it was fully charged
and now
two hours of listening later
the ipod only has a third left
why can't apple just replace my battery?
sadlfjhasdjcxjhfsoeiyfs


now I have to charge it again
::deep breath::
no more complaining
or ranting
the end

Posted by hayley at Thursday, October 05, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

so the self-centered freshman that sits next to me in ceramics (not to say that all freshmen are self centered, or stupid, or any worse than other kids in the high school but this person is a freshman so whatever. if she was a junior I would say the self centered junior but whatever.)
right anyway
this one considers herself a tortured artist
she draws and is constantly with her ipod (blaring emo music I'm sure)
and she is quite good
very talented
but
everyday she washes only her fourth of the table
like she can't be bothered to clean anyone else's space, even though she's done before everyone else at the table (usually)
today
she leaves the sponge in front of my space (where all my crap is still sitting because I had my ipod on (wild tour of the ipod =D) and didn't hear the teacher call time.
and she's just standing there while I'm rushing around trying to put all of my stuff back and whatever
well not really rushing
but more so than usual
gaa
drives me insane
she does it everyday!!!
whatever

::deep breath::

I guess I should cut her some slack huh
I bet that high school isn't quite the magical fairytale she imagined it to be over the summer

a fresh start
a permanent break from the stupid clique you hang out with but don't really like

not

I know that story quite well
and it's a rude wakeup call

Posted by hayley at Tuesday, October 03, 2006 | Permalink | Comments

I am currently on a wild tour of my ipod
yes this includes all of those retarded songs that you listened to when you put it on when you first got your ipod at 13 years old.
the rule is that you aren't allowed to skip any songs unless it's really really really bad.
I've got a wide range of funky crap on my ipod
beatles
blink182
weezer
black eyed peas
gwen stefani
maroon5
james galway (at the request of my flute teacher)
etc.
simple plan came up (yes ouch emo gross)
welcome to my life
their #1 hit single bla bla bla
I was listening to it and I realized,
it's a song about how no one can relates or understands you
and life sucks (traditional emo fare)
and yet EVERYONE relates to it
they have thier audience down
pat.

Posted by hayley at Tuesday, October 03, 2006 | Permalink | Comments