the bright side of ugly

wow i have seen like 3 doctors in the past 24 hours and my tummy hurts from being poked at for an hour and a half ultrasounds must die lol and so much gel was squirted onto my poor abdomen that they had to open a new squirty thing lol kind of funny actually... still not fun though i hope i feel better enough to go to camp because the first doctor said that i couldnt unless i gained 10 pounds but that might be changed now that i am not considered to have an eating disorder anymore because thats what she first thought and put me on the cookie diet (3 cookies a day; 2 bananas; 16 oz. cup of chocolate milk; cup of pistachios w/o shells) but now i cant eat any milk stuff (or thats what dad said....) and mommy is talking about joining a support group but the intestine thingy i have doesnt seem so bad to me... i mean of course i'd rather not but after seeing all of the really really sick kids in the blood ward today im just pretty happy not to be one of them... and if i follow the special diet and take iron supplements then i wont even have to have my bowels removed and a bag put in instead so looks ok to me i guess. just really glad not to be one of those sick kids visiting the blood doctor. there was this one optomistic girl and she started out doing hw but then left and came back into this like comfy waiting room place (waiting room inside the doctors office... it had lots of comfy-plastic rocking and arm chairs and stuff) all hooked up to this big machine-y thing and her mom was on the phone arranging an appointment for special treatment in pennsylvania and there was also this little boy eating chick-fil-a hooked up to a similar machine and a little hispanic toddler and also a girl on chemo hooked up to same machine and she had a kercheif on because she was balding and i just felt really really happy not to be diagnosed with one of those yucky cancer-terminal die diseases. so the intestine thing wont kill me... just cause pain and for that i guess im pretty glad...

Posted by hayley on Wednesday, June 01, 2005 at Wednesday, June 01, 2005 | Permalink